In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
Do read my blogs, follow me on Twitter (@jocelynesze) and friend me on Facebook (subject to my discretion). Visit my Nature blog, Nature Rambles, at http://natureramble.wordpress.com.

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Friday, August 31, 2007

Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

- Simple Plan
mood now: despondant.

now it hits me, that my family's in hk, holidaying, while i'm still stuck in singapore. trying to finish my hw. trying to contact the ever-elusive weiwei. trying to figure out why this and why that.

hmphh, i miss my family, house seems so quiet. and i keep worrying what if sth happens to them while they're overseas. sheesh. wish i hadnt signed up for malacca now):

finished my math assignmens, thankfully. though there were a couple of questions i din know how to do, but who cares. stuck at the stupid chem worksheets. i swear, she goes off somewhere, leaves us with a relief teacher, comes back and makes us do ws about stuff we dont even know about? seriously, i think i lost track of chem since we started... periodicity? about transition metals and reactivity series and now acid bases and salt... what the hell are salt?! sheesh, i dont even know the basics and you're making me do assignments. argh, contributes to my already upset mood about being alone at home.

havent even settled avventura equipment stuff. and since i'm going to be away, trying to get wei to do it instead. but as usual, she cant be contacted. god knows what her hp is for, whether her home phone is still in existance and if her internet's actually working. sheesh it. makes me in a rather bad mood.

and other nitty gritty stuff. sheesh, i have a feeling apart from malacca, holiday's not going to be that fun.
today's a really memorable day(: teachers' day celebration was a total blast! was supeerr cool! some of the performances was a bit flat and boring, but the last one, the finale was totally super unexpected and shocking! :D see the teachers in a different light!
most of the teachers in our sch come from acs, be it acsi or acjc... so they got the guy teachers from acs (and others as well, i think) to form a class in "B(l)others of (L)affles Academy" was quite an obvious slighting of rgs... haha but it was highly entertaining(: so mr aldrin tee was the head prefect in 4/17 (it started by mrs tan apparently being angry at the fact that many ppl din come to sch, and doing a random roll call, and calling 4/17!) and the other prefects in 4/17 were mr daniel lau and mr joseph toh. and the class monitor was uh, i dno his name :/ anyway, i cant rmb all the "students", but there was mr kenneth tan, mr shawn yeoh, mr lim pia leong, mr jason ng, mr james ong, mr benjamin, mr de souza, mr andrew chia, mr chang wen fatt... and later on, mr lorenzo angel, mr paul segarra and another teacher whom i dont know... still short of four more names, ah well(: yea and all of them were very pai and kept annoying the teachers. despite mr tee's valiant efforts :P and they enjoy getting class bookings, to the point of taking photos to mark each booking. haha quite hard to describe the whole thing, basically it was so hilarious, everyone was screaming/laughing the whole time... i mean if you suddenly saw a teacher whom you thought was very strict act like... like some pai kia... either way, it was really really cool! sigh, wish i have a camera, then can take video.. though i did see other people take... haha so yea teacher's day 2007 was really memorable :D

after that went to see if there were any odacians going to sign the teachers' presents. and sadly, apart from the sec 2s, sihui, siling and i, there wasnt anyone. quite disappointed, cos it seems to be turning out exactly the same as last year's. sigh. anyway still to find ms chun and tell her that i refuse to pay the $27 for breaking the top of the burette. she said maybe, so watever, i still havent paid. then tried to find jo ho to tell her i cant make it for house camp, then realised she's not in sg-.- after all the running ard, finally got back to class to write "notes" on the chocs we got for the teachers. halfway writing then need to do the stupid CRPP survey... haha i din know how to do the last few qn, so just made up some ans xP then left even though the person said could only be dismissed at 12, to finish writing and giving them to the teachers. so walked around sch with eunice trying to find all the teachers. then finally i could leave for pri sch...

teo li fang was supposed to go back with me, but she hitched a ride from yi shyuan's mom i think, and yea, ditched me. then cos i wanted to leave at 1+ to send my family off, and if i took mrt/bus i would have reached pri sch at 1+, decided to take a cab. and it cost me $8 to go there. argh. then reach pri sch, only wenxin, wenjia, see wei, dominic, nevin was there. then kelly came. then ming jun and paul came. listened to lame jokes by kelly, but din do much talking (nothing much to talk bout anyway...) then after my dad came to pick my bro up, i went off(:

but in the end, i couldnt go airport see them off cos the car no space -.- make me rush for nothing, din even get to see my pri sch teacher, ms yap. ah wells, least now i have time to uh, finish my hw/sleep.

realise there's not much of a holiday for me :/ today have to try and finish hw. tmr go eunice's house, apart from going out to stock up on food for the trip, i'm prob going to try and do more hw/study. sun-tues in malaysia. (house camp from tues-wed). wed supposed to have piano lessons, spsb outing, math tuition. but if i were to go for house camp, then i cant do any. (and i dont really want to go for camp either:/) thu morning maybe try to do some hw, or sleep in. thu afternoon avventura training! (ahh, we're so dead!) fri morning bio "remedial" (he's playing planet earth!!) then lunch is comm meeting at plaza sing. fish & co. mr tan's treating! then after lunch rush back to sch for osl fa course. then sat is avventura registration. then sun is the race itself. so, i must finish hw before going malacca...

Thursday, August 30, 2007

hmm, went to buy running shoes with wei today after comm handover(: haha she's so crap lah, but well rather useful as a porter xP just joking, she's really helpful haha then after that we went to eat dinner, then took mrt down to plaza sing the carrefour, cos we wanted to get fbts for avventura. haha, and for me to buy chocs for the teachers too(: got all the chocolates liao(: haha and mr lim got something extra... too bad he still at pulau ubin, else can give him tmr(:

went for the geog trip briefing before comm handover... haha cant wait for the trip!:D almost half the ppl going are from 307!! :D 307 rocks xD

yea and comm handover... was different from last year. maybe it's the people, maybe it's the position, maybe it's the venue, maybe it's everything. suddenly sunk in, that we're going to be the oldest, that other ppl are going to be turing to us for advice, that we have no one to turn to for advice, that odac, is going to be entirely in our hands. and that doesnt seem very encouraging. well we'll just try our best and make all our dreams work, no? if everything goes well within our comm, that is...
yea and while mr tan was talking about how everything may change, the people change, odac changes and so on so forth, but he is one that hasnt changed (or maybe the word he used wasnt change, i cant rmb)... and though he said it in a joking manner, reminds me of that time when i told him that i'd be quite sad that the seniors are leaving, and he told me that he feels that way every year... imagine, you see these people from sec 1 till sec 4, then suddenly poof, they disappear out of your life. must be quite hard on him, and other dedicated teachers. hmm he's so busy, and seems so stressed.. guess all the more we should try and make it easier for him, and not give him so much problems? i think when ppl do stuff, they dont usually consider the impact it has on the teachers... if it stresses me out, shouldnt it be double that for him? after all he has more on his plate than i do.. sigh, really thankful we have such a great teacher ic... maybe it's cos he's our teacher ic, so we know him better, but i do think that other students are rather unappreciative... all that lack of sleep, but still, he makes the effort to crack lame jokes(:
haha this post shall be dedicated to him then, since teacher's day is just half an hour away(:
Happy Teachers' Day to all the teachers who have made an impact in my life one way or another, either through the wise words or the entertainment value! :D



shoosh, last day of term tmr... still havent paid for the stupid burette. i swear, just cos i broke of the top, just a LITTLE bit, they're making me pay a freaking $27! seriously, no wonder no one ever reports damages lah, if that's the cost of being honest... shall try my best to bargain with the lab tech tmr, in the hopes that i wont have to pay so much... $27, seriously.. my advice to all out there, never ever break, or even CHIP off your burette and report it.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Your Power Element is Fire

Your power color: red

Your energy: hot

Your season: spring

Like a fire, you are full of power and light.
A born leader, you easily draw people toward you.
You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous.
You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.



hmm, i've a sudden fetish for blogthings...
Your Personality Is

Rational (NT)


You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas.
You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy!

Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people.
In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally.

You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought.
Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals.

In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent.

At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia.

With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well.

As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly.

On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.
You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

In love, you express your emotions through actions.
Taking care of someone is how you love them. And you do it well!

At work, you do well in a structured environment. You complete tasks well and on time.
You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut
What Guys Think of Your Ponytail...

Girlish, free spirited, low maintenance.
The kind of girl he can take camping ... for fire building and romance :-)
Your Stress Level is: 44%

You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard.
When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems.
But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.
Your Superpower Should Be Super Speed

You're quick witted and fast to act.
You're mind works at warp speed. From your perspective, everyone else is living in slow motion.
You get so much done, people have accused you of not sleeping.
Definitely not a couch potato, you feel a bit crazy if you're not busy doing something.

Why you would be a good superhero: You're be the first on the scene... and likely to finish the job before anyone else shows up

Your biggest problem as a superhero: Being bored by everyone else. Including other superheroes!
You Are 24% Paranoid Schizophrenic

You're pretty grounded, though you have your occasional paranoid moments.
Just make sure to ignore those voices in your head!
You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch you when you appear
Even though you're capable of random violence

You are best known for: your power

Your dominant state: performing
What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as confident and determined.

Overall, your true self is passionate and physical.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.
You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.
You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...
But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.
You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.
You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.
You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.

Power: force beams from your eyes
You Are a Frappacino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern

At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent

You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet

Your caffeine addiction level: low
Your Gluttony Quotient: 35%

You have a pretty good relationship with food - you enjoy it, but you don't go overboard.
You've struck the perfect balance between gluttony and self control.
You are a Tomboy Girl!

Instead of flirting, you tend to pal around with the guys you crush on.
And why not? You can hold your own in sports, video games, and gross out contests.
Just make sure and suprise them with a touch of girlishness every once and a while.
Then you'll be treated like the hottie you are - not like one of the guys.
my mom's left for hk, and the rest of my family will follow tmr... and i'll be alone... hmm, good thing or bad? but i'll miss them for sure..

finished math and chem, and filing chem stuff! such an accomplishment(: halfway through i was irritated though. but well, it's passed. but seriously, is it my fault, always? i dont see why that warranted that response, but whatever. forget it, else i'd be brooding over it forever and ever and yea.

teacher's day tmr, and i still havent bought any presents! i wonder if there'll be enough time after handover tmr... need to buy running shoes for avventura too! speaking of avventura, sheesh, it sounds rather undoable now... should start training, i should, but i'm always too lazy :P

off to sleep now, maybe i can finish The Killing Fields by today...(:
yay, english is finally over!:D haha i was so afraid i'd get a mental block and just stare at my paper for one hour and ten minutes! haha, but i managed to write 3 pages and 3 lines instead(: hope it wasnt out of point though.. and great news, FRIVOLITIES is NOT a word i made up!! it exists!!! yay:D haha(: so glad that eng is over! only math to look forward to now, as well as SS PT... speaking of math, i realise i like math! (: after i finished ws5 eg2 today, i felt like i just finished running a marathon. a mental one, maybe, but still, a marathon. so.. exhilarating! while eunice would say it's exhausting :P haha, i hope i can do well for the next and last SA before EYAs(:

oh and i'm feeling very proud of myself, i filed my eng, ss and physics ws yesterday! shall do chem/math/chi/geog soon :P

hmm, still in the midst of reading The Killing Fields. a sad, gory story about an American journalist and his Cambodian assistant's experience in Cambodia during the war. watched the movie during osl working camp, but somehow the movie doesnt seem to be able to capture the finer details, although it was more impactful, all the visuals and sound effects...

on a brighter note, Kukup/Malacca trip's in 3 day's time!! :D we're going to have a blast there(: spending the saturday at eunice's house, cos my family's going to desert me for hongkong on friday. so i'll be spending fri night at my aunt's house, sat night at eunice's house, sun and mon night in malaysia, and tue night at my aunt's house again before my family comes back ): i wish i could go to both malaysia and hongkong! hmphh.

ooh, teacher's day is coming, sigh, going to have to buy presents. so troublesome :/ but still, in appreciation of our great, wonderful teachers, better go out to buy something(:

Monday, August 27, 2007

I'll Be There For You – The Rembrandts

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's DOA
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year, but...

I'll be there for you...
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you...
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you...
'Cause you're there for me too.

You're still in bed at ten, though work begins at eight,
You burned your breakfast, so far things are going great,
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these,
But she didn't tell you
when the world was brought down to your knees
that...

I'll be there for you...
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you...
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you...
'Cause you're there for me too.

No one could ever know me. No one could ever see me.
Seems your the only one who knows what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with.
Make it through all the mess with.
Someone I'll always laugh with.
Even at my worst, I'm best with....
you - yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear,
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
Or even your year, but...

I'll be there for you...
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you...
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you...
'Cause you're there for me too...



seems like ages ago when we practised that... like a total different era.

What You Really Think Of Your Friends
Lifang is your soulmate. (xD haha)
You truly love Sihui. (xP)
You know that Chermaine is always thinking of you. (-.-)
You'll remember Juanmin for the rest of your life.
You secretly think that Weiwei is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker. (:D)
p>


haha, weiwe IS a total risk taker :P
You Are 16% Cynical

Cynical? Not even close! If anything, you're a bit naive.
Overall, you enjoy life and try not to be paranoid. Even if you've been burned before.


well i always thought i was rather cynical.. maybe not to that bad an extent(:
You Are Mostly Secure

In general, you feel confident and together.
But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure.
Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually.
So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!
What Your Pizza Reveals

You eat like a European. A little bit of everything, but too much. You stay svelt through portion control.

You are a very picky pizza eater. Not any pizza will do. You fit in best in the Northeast part of the US.

You like food that's traditional and well crafted. You aren't impressed with "gourmet" foods.

You are generous, outgoing, and considerate with your choices.

You are carefree and friendly. You should consider traveling to Hawaii.

The stereotype that best fits you is stoner. You're a little wacky in the head, even if you don't touch drugs.
haha yep i'm a very picky eater:P and of cos i dont mind going Hawaii(:
Your Pride Quotient: 25%

You're a little prideful, but nothing out of the norm.
Like everyone, you enjoy attention. But you're also good at sharing the spotlight!
You Are 52% Intuitive

Your intuition is often right, and you use it more than you may realize.
Your gut feelings are usually a good guide, but you need more to go on when making a decision.
You'll often check to see if the facts back up your feelings.
And when your intuition is wrong, you work to improve it for the future.
Your Career Type: Social

You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.
Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems.

You would make an excellent:

Counselor - Dental Hygienist - Librarian
Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer
Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher

The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.


hmm, this is interesting too... teacher? maybe...
Your Scholastic Strength Is Innovating

You are the master of new ideas, techniques, and ways of looking at things.
You are talented at structuring thoughts, decision making, clarifying, and making deadlines.

You should major in:

Marketing
Psychology
Desgin
Cognitive Science
Economics
Photography



ooh, this would be helpful... probably more so that our new career guidance teacher :P
You Are 64% Thankful

You are a very thankful person - for both the big and little things in life.
Your optimism is powerful. Getting through hard times is fairly easy for you.

uh-huh, i should be very thankful for my life, shouldnt i...
Your Life is 33% Off Track

In general, your life is going very well.
You're quite happy with where you are and what you're doing.
And even if you get a bit off course, you're usually able to get back on track easily.


hmm...
Your Birthdate: April 9

You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count.
You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing.
Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time.
You're open minded and tolerant. People feel like they can tell you anything.

Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility

Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic

Your power color: Pine green

Your power symbol: Circle

Your power month: September
You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what.
Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out.
And while some may get hurt by your honesty...
At least everyone knows where you stand!
Your Dominant Intelligence is Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence

You are naturally athletic and coordinated, good at making your mind and body work together.
Sports are fun and easy for you, especially those requiring good hand - eye coordination.
There's also a good chance you're a great dancer, or good at expressing yourself through body language.
You learn best by doing, and you feel like you've always got to be moving (even if it's just your hands).

You would make a good athlete, physical education teaches, dancer, actor, firefighter, or artisan.
Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent.
You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored.
You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts.
And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.


haha, i see i have some artistic talent after all...
You Are 48% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.
You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.
You Should Spend the Holidays In

France - where "Pere Noel" fills your shoes full of toes
Your Vocabulary Score: B

You have a zealous love for the English language, and many find your vocabulary edifying.
Don't fret that you didn't get every word right, your vocabulary can be easily ameliorated!



haha my vocab not that bad xP
phew, geog's finally over! no more till EOYs(: thank goodness, the geog dept seriously sadistic lah! worse than math i tell you... anyway, i barely had time to finish it, i still had lots of points i wanted to add! but i hope i captured the main ones... eng is on wed, and although everyone says you dont need to study for it, somehow the way ms lim talks about it,it's as though we do... hmphh, cant wait for the hols! going to malacca for geog trip(: the majority of whom are going are also from 307(: and i'm rooming with eunice!:D haha, shall bring lots of junk and have lots of fun there! (:

oh and i forgot friday in my last post - went for pri sch gathering! haha wasnt much of a gathering, only 9 of us? out for 41... and most were guys, who looked nearly the same, if you squint at them from far away... all of them, the guys and girls (only 2 apart from me..) were about half to one head taller than me, and seriously made me feel like i was in pri sch again... and all the guys dressed the same way and spiked their hair.. which just goes to show that guys do not have creativity... :P

hmm, and i forgot what else i wanted to say... ah wells(:

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Your Life is Rated PG

Your life is pretty family friendly. The worse someone is going to get from you is brief nudity or toilet humor.


haha family friendly..
Your Mind is 57% Cluttered

Your mind is starting to get cluttered, and as a result, it's a little harder for you to keep focused.
Try to let go of your pettiest worries and concerns. The worrying is worse than the actual problems!
You May Be a Bit Borderline...

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!
When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...
And when you're down, your whole world is crashing
Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!


haha i agree
You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.
You Are 32% Weirdo

You're a little weird, but you'd be even weirder if you didn't have a few quirks.
You are just strange enough to know it, but nobody else seems to notice your weirdness.
That's because, deep down, everyone is a little freaky!


see, i'm not such a weirdo after all.. or maybe that there are just weirder ppl out there :P
You Are 8% Nerdy
You are definitely not nerdy - in fact, you probably don't know any nerds.You probably care a little too much about your image. No one will know if you secretly watch Star Trek reruns!
How Nerdy Are You?

hmm just proves i'm not a nerd... but hmm, i care a little too much about my image? do i?


You Make a Great First Impression

You can handle almost any social situation with grace, even the tricky ones.
Strangers often find you charming and interesting. You are often remembered fondly.
Even if you're not naturally outgoing, you can make conversation with anyone if you need to.

Whether you were born this way or had to work to get here, you are definitely charismatic.
You're popular and well liked. People definitely look forward to being around you.
Your social connections bring you a full and rich life. You understand how important it is to make a lasting impression.


yea right... hmm i'm in a "self doubt", "i dont think i can make it" kind of mood now. i wonder if metro caters to that too..
Your Inner Muse is Thalia

You are most like this playful muse of comedy.
Life is all about laughter to you, and you're a natural comic.
You make people laugh until their sides split.
And you're always up for some play time!
You Are From Uranus
You shine with brilliant creativity, and you're more than a little eccentric.You love everything unusual and shocking. You're one far-out chick or dude.Anything unconventional excites you - and you have genius potential.Just don't let your rebel side get the best of you, or else you'll alienate everyone.Your original thinking and funky attitude is all you need to be you.
What Planet Are You From?
hmm, for the first time (or maybe it isnt the first, but still), i watched campus superstar! haha so anyway, missed out zheng ning's performance, but got the guys' and after... hmphft, i forgot to sign up on inet, so cannot go ks chee to support (HAHA I SAW LOTS OF PPL ON TV)... anyway, watched it from home, while reading HPDH for a second time.. yea the show was that boring, if not for the fact that zheng ning's in it, i wouldnt have bothered :P still, it was quite surprising, i thought the older guy would win! haha not that i'm not pleased or anything, Shawn's way cuter than Benjamin... he's only 13! haha okay anyway yea, quite sad that zheng ning din get first, but it was expected? from what i heard, least. ah wells, guess it was a good experience anyway, she did a good job :D must take a lot of guts to stand in front of so many people and sing and dance... haha i'd have failed the qualifying round or whatever that's called :P

anyway, my beauty sleep was interrupted this morning by mr lim, who called me to tell me to go to school earlier to help out with selling of some CDs for osl -.- so after the call, i went back to sleep, naturally(: anyway, so i reached school slightly late, but still was early, since there was no one there, except for this lady who told me to go get more toilet paper... ran up and down doing errands and trying to contact someone who could tell me what i was supposed to be doing there, cos well, i didnt know.. managed everything at the end anyway, and earned bout $110 for osl(: amira and justina were the only ones apart from me to come, but haha we got free food xP

and i realised i'm not an optimist actually, contrary to what my blog title says, unless it's possible to be a pessimist yet be happy? haha but yea, i'm skeptical and dont trust ppl easily and totally, but i give ppl the benefit of the doubt most of the time anyway, and usually am happy... even if the happiness is superficial? so some people say.. but it's quite difficult to be totally, 100% happy, isnt it? even if it's superficial happiness, least you're happy...

hmph, one thing that wont make me happy for sure, is that geog test's on monday, and eng's on wed... shoosh, i really hope i can score well for both, i dont want my gpa to drop:/

suddenly, the full impact of what it means drops on my head. what if i cant do it, or dont do it well? no matter what they say, it doesnt seem so.

and well, you make it sound like it's my fault that i dont tell you sth which wasnt even official. we thought of it ourselves, we planned it ourselves, you could always do the same. somehow, i think next year's going to be worse.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

ahh, in addition to a love for documentaries, i've also developed a love for comics! :P Foxtrot and Baby blues(: haha

anyway today after FAMily! meeting, went to wait outside the bus stop, cos i couldnt see anyone running so i tot they went home. then i found out that wei, juan, viv, sihui and siling were in the GYM.. so i went back and changed. then ran around the track once, and did 15 mins on this weird, dno what thing (some stepping thingy) and 15 mins on the threadmill.. and according to the screen thingy, i've burned off about 150+ calories? i dno, i dont think it's too reliable.. but after 15 mins of the stepping thingy, i was dripping sweat like uh.. i just came out of the swimming pool.. okay maybe not so exaggerated, but you get the drift... and so i think, i should go to the gym after sch everyday and do some workout for perhaps half an hour, then maybe, i could have a slight chance of getting some placing for avventura... :P i wish...

anyway tmr chi essay.. die liao(: can just see my gpa go down the draaaiiinn...

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

hmm chem SPA today.. hopefully, i didnt get my calculations wrong :/ anyways, it's over, and there's only Chi SA, Geog SA, Eng SA, holidays, Math SA, a few weeks then EOYs! oh no, time flies really fast... should start mugging, shouldnt i... but i know i wont :P hmm, went home straight after school today, but still, only reached home at bout 3+, 4... sigh, i seriously dont know what i do with my time... but least i managed to finish my hw :D
no nice documentaries today): hmphft, nice documentaries are probably about the only thing that would cheer me up now, destress after a long day's work. and anyhow, after that incident. blegh.

finally thought of how to "rescue" my mp3 - tape the battery lid shut! haha, so now i can use it. only thing is, i cant find the transfer cable...

hmm, i guess music does reflect your mood.. i've only just started to be back to my uh, usual self? before june hols, around mar/apr that kind of mood, when everything seemed just fine and dandy. then after dunno-when, but i suspect it's then (haha, it sounds like some kind of riddle), started to feel more gloomy and tired and losing interest in sch work and stuff. then after dno-when and i really dno when started to feel like im back to normal.. but now i'm feeling tired again.. which is bad, cos EOYs/EYAs are coming and i cant afford to slack on my studies. Cambodia's coming up too and i cant afford to slack on that either. and FAM too. and about everything else. sigh.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Hmm, i've a new found love for documentaries(: The kind on nature and medical stuffums... Watched a bit of Planet Carnivore: Lion on National Geographic and the whole episode of Life or Death on Discovery Channel, and i added those into my bio journal(: maybe i'll get "more ticks"... haha anyway, it's really fascinating, particularly the Life or Death episode... i'm determined to make time to watch Life or Death every tuesday, and maybe some interesting documentaries on National Geographic... hmm i think it'll be interesting to be a documentary presenter/narrator (what's the difference??) when i grow up... but i think BBC only hires people who speak with a British accent... oooh, did you know Sir David Attenborough is 81 years old! he's sooo OLD! but he's cool :P

ack, din study chem, was too fascinated over bio :/ BIO!!:D




i'm sorry, i really am. i admit, i shouldn't have done what i did, and i really appreciate you doing all that.

Monday, August 20, 2007

hmprhh, the end of our holiday): it was such a nice holiday, i woke up at 10+, found out that my 11am math tuition was postponed as my teacher had a headache, read newspaper and slacked around (finally finished reading the 3rd book i bought from wales!) so the whole day, all i did was upload some RS pics, finish the geog FA, finish math assisnment. quite sad, but when you factor in math tuition and piano lesson, hey i did manage to do some stuff (:
anyway, i realised im feeling quite... stressed. cos i dont understand physics... and cos my files are all in a mess, my ws are all over the place, and my notes are not in the notebooks! in other words, i am NOT prepared for all my exams... which are in about...7-8 weeks!
but i'm NOT a geek, so... but still, i dont know why people keep asking me about school work, when half the time, i'm sleeping in class :P

blegh, back to school tmr! thank goodness for RS! i love RS(: with all the special perks and all, who wouldn't! btw, we're looking for a group to take over us next year! so juniors who are interested, haha better go visit our blog and read up and everything, then apply next year (we shall give a quiz to see how much you know xP)!

Sunday, August 19, 2007

today's rs was fun(: albeit a bit wet... okay maybe not a bit...
so i reached at 745, followed by mr lim and ms ria tan and then ms siti (while we were alr at work) and then sihui and siling... so mr lim and i started work first... the tide, at 0.8m was very very high! i got splashed right up to my waist -.- but the whole procedure was very fun. then halfway through, the both of them came, and mr lim made them stand where we were standing so they'd get wet too, only they din bring a change of clothes -.- so well yea, then after that, the clinometer i made for math lesson last year dropped in the sea, and died a sorry death (the straw came off, and the whole thing was a soggy mess).. so after the whole thing was done (for more details, go to http://labradorpark.wordpress.com! after we post on today's session...) we went to change (naturally, for those who brought a change of clothes..) then went for prata! we had to squeeze into ms ria tan's tiny sports? car... and mr lim treated the three of us to prata and ribena! so yea, who doesnt like rs :D cant wait for the next!

yea, and i realised that i shouldnt come into contact with expensive (or not expensive) equipment/entertainment devices such as Mp3s, cameras and computers. cos once touched by me, they suffer the unfortunate consequence of dying a sorry death... my first camera (which was a free gift, i stress) died on me, although my mom says it's a malfunction... my mp3's battery lid also broke off, so i cant use it anymore unless i hold the lid closed tight the whole time i want to listen... my second camera accidentally nearly dropped into a rockpool in wales and well, water got in so... then the mp3 i borrowed from my bro to store my wales pics also got corrupted and all, i stress ALL my photos of wales got deleted. so naturally, i'm very sad, cos i took a lot of photos which other ppl din (cos i brought it out on field trips with me) :( and my desktop comp keeps crashing on me... so yea, if you want your stuff to remain safe, dont lend me! but still, that din stop mr lim from saying he'd lend his camera (spare!) to me!! :D haha, he hasnt passed it to me though -.-

and last but not least, SPEECH DAY! well, looking at my intelligence and so on so forth, naturally i din win a prize... i went for speech day with a very special group of people whom i'm very attached to - RINGERS! yup, so we went and performed our "two best pieces", Tango and Entertainer, to a rousing applause, and people fedback that we "brought the house down" etc etc! :D the good performance nonetheless, i was feeling quite sad, cos it's the last time i'll be performing with ringers :( i'm going to miss everyone, especially ZIQI! and amelia (haha notice the difference?? :P) cos they stand next to me. Ziqi will be sad cos Amelia will bully her (cos you see, now i bully amelia and "protect" ziqi from the bullying amelia, but once i'm gone, amelia will bully her :( )boo, but if symposium's prac on fridays next year, i can go! i want to go for handbell symposium, it'll be held at FLORIDA, USA! haha but anyway, was talking about speech day.. yea so i reached at 730 to pass court shoes to viviangan (cos she lent them to me) and spent the next few hours getting ready for the performance at 12+ -.- but i brought my bio journal to do, so it wasnt a complete waste of time.. then anyway, right before the performance, outside the hall, ms goh the conductor declared that my make up was non-existant and i had to "touch up" - basically make me look like a hantu... sigh, i'm really really going to miss ringers (though not the bell keeping and table carrying part xP) :(

yup, so that about sums up my weekend.. oh wait! i forgot!! :D i made mooncakes!!! :D they're really easy to make, and they're really nice, and really cheap too! when you make it yourself... only my cousin from taiwan came over to "help" and basically made a mess... he's really spoilt too... and no one touched his mooncakes, except his loving mom... haha, anyway, mooncakes are really really nice! :D

yay, holiday tmr(;

Saturday, August 18, 2007

yay the pic's finally up(: ignore the "jeremy peektures" at the side, my bro likes to mark his photos (so ppl wont steal it, i suspect) haha juan looks spatic, as usual:D

Friday, August 17, 2007

anyway PSB 08 results are out, quite happy that most of the JPSLs got in(: no idea why the rest didnt though... quite sad that Zann and Ling Xi didnt get it ): i wish they did, hmph.

anyway, a photo from Ringers concert that i like, and just got from my bro(:

well stupid blogger wont load the photo and my mom wants me to sleep soon so i shall post another day.
yay SS is finally over! haha, couldnt remember the stats, so just made them up xP overall the day passed quite well... bio was cool, we watched planet earth! haha i want the documentary! i wonder if library has... but then again, i wouldnt sit down to watch through the whole thing...
then had ringers, my last official practice ): was quite sad, but well, better to be happy and make full use of it... haha Shara and Shuna's "If we hold on together" is quite... terrible! haha(:
after that was cooking... the food didnt turn out that bad! the pineapple cake finish already(: haha, i was pinching our food right after it came out from the oven...
oh and i had my house comm interviews halfway through cooking lessons :P i sneaked out (under the pretext of going to toilet) and had the interview. then halfway mrs goh came out, but i think she didnt see me... heng:D haha!
ohohoh! our new RS blog is up! http://labradorpark.wordpress.com :D
yay, so happy! monday's a holidayyyy!!!!:D not that i can slack around and do nothing (like my younger bro has been doin the past 2 days...) sigh, sometimes i miss pri sch... we're having a gathering next sat though(: will be nice to see them again...

hmm tmr will be my last time performing for Ringers ): but it's Speech Day, and we're hoping to play really fantabulously well so the school will get us a new set of bells (cos ours is like... off pitch, and cracked) so :D

Thursday, August 16, 2007

it's SS test tomorrow, and i'm not studying! or rather, i cant study. cant be bothered, cant concentrate, cant everything. probably cant pass as well... for one, i'm too excited about our RS blog!! :D it's great(: yay, soon it will be open for public scrutiny! and for another, ss is just such a boring subject. just 2 days ago, i was frantically studying for bio, till late at night. yet today i'm slacking away... ): i like bio better anyway!
anyway today is turning out to be quite a good day... RS was absolutely great, our blog!!!! ahh, haha okay, i'm just obssessed over it :) relationships also appear to be improving...
anyway, there's this nutter of a guy, who keeps calling/messaging me!!! i dont even know him/her!!! anyone know this number - 81582435 please tell me. (it sounds familiar though...) the person calls himself/herself Deva Indeya... gross, i hate stalkers...
anyway, cooking tomorrow! but the thing we're cooking (or rather baking) has cheese in it -.- cheese should be a banned substance from all cooking!!!

hmm, i'm thinking of moving to wordpress, cos i like the user friendliness of it! (and cos my rs blog is also wordpress!) haha, shall see... sadly wordpress cant use POTTERPUPPETPALS ): and i realise that when I am not crazy about PPP, no one else is! (except perhaps, a few of my crazy crazy juniors...) ahha, that just proves how influential i am :P haha just joking.. but all the furor over PPP does seem to have died down.. although that may be due to the tests...


anyway jiayou for SS sec 3s! jiayou for... geog? sec 1s!! dno about the rest...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

busy busy for the past few days with English oral and Physics SPA on monday, Chinese oral on tuesday, and Bio EOI today! yay, finally can take a breather before mugging for SS tmr.. or later today...
So my orals are finally over! i was soo happy(: haha, then SPA was a disaster, i totally did it wrongly :/ hope my grades wont be too badly affected... then today's EOI... well i certainly pray and hope that i will do well enough... dont want to disappoint anyone, least of all myself...
so that's it for exams, still have SS on fri, chem SPA and chi essay next week, and Geog SA and Eng essay in week 10... then it's the HOLIDAYS! not that it'll be much of one... ): my family will be going to hongkong while i'm stuck in Malacca... sigh, knew i should have just gone for the marine processing one at lab park...
on the other hand, the most amusing thing i've heard the whole week "I always thought you were Malay!" by Ms Siow... after she saw me during chinese class... seriously, which Malay has a first name of Jocelyne, and the surname Sze?!?!! haha but fine, i admit i look a bit like a Malay...
sigh, speech day rehearsal later... ): such a waste of my time!
then ytd we had (osl) pubs meeting, and there was a grand turnout of... TWO!! shiying and i.. but then again, our comm only got 3 ppl... yea and cos the classrooms were occupied and noisy, we camped outside my class and attracted a lot of weird stares... least we got some stuff done and settled, now we only need to CARRY it out... :/ we better do our work well! seeing as how little work we have...
which reminds me, i lead a very sad life): sigh, for some unknown reason, i'm always in comms which does videos... despite the fact that i have no ounce of talent in this area... so for FAM and pubs, i'll be rushing to finish both towards the event, which is NEAR MY EOYS!! WHILE EVERYONE'S MUGGING!!!! and i really want my grades to go up):




in a pretty good mood now. even if it's past 12am... dont want it to be ruined...

oh by the way i submitted the form for hadley house comm alr... hope it isnt a fatal mistake (:

Sunday, August 12, 2007

did the colour quiz again cos i felt like it...
Your Existing Situation
Active, outgoing, and restless. Feels frustrated by the slowness with which events develop along the desired lines. This leads to irritability, changeability, and lack of persistence when pursuing a given objective.
Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which she feels separates herself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. She therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on her and insists on being free and unhampered.
Your Restrained Characteristics
The situation is preventing her from establishing herself, but she feels she must make the best of things as they are.
Willing to become emotionally involved and able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity, but tries to avoid conflict.
Your Desired Objective
Longs for a tender and sympathetic bond and for a situation of idealized harmony. Has an imperative need for tenderness and affection. Susceptible to anything esthetic.
Your Actual Problem
Seeks to avoid criticism and to prevent restriction of her freedom to act, and to decide for herself by the exercise of great personal charm in her dealings with others.
Your Actual Problem #2
Has a fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants. This leads her to employ great personal charm in her dealings with others, hoping that this will make it easier for her to reach her objectives.

hmm dno if it's true... sometimes i dont know myself as well as i thought i knew, cos somehow, what i know is always skewed by what i want to know... what i want from myself is different from what i am, so while i may think i'm totally lovable, there are people who think i'm totally abhorable... do i make sense?

anyway, for the first time, CCD lessons were actually interesting... i dont care that everyone else was complaining about how we were held back and stuff, they dont even bother asking questions... but still dont have answers to some of my questions... nonetheless, realised that i do have other avenues... then for the first time in a few years, i went up to the choir loft with my friend's... encouragement? she wanted me to go with her anyway, so i went. and there were like 5 cute babies(: so i sort of informally joined the choir...

then last night jo ho asked me if i wanted to join the hse comm... if i do, i have to sacrifice my sat mornings... not that i had any in the first place, but still... should i join? would i be getting myself into too much uhh committment?

anyway, my CCD class teacher was talking about we should be spreading and defending God's word... well i dont know much of the reasons behind what we do, but i'm determined to find out... on the spreading bit, well here's an open invitation: if you want to come down to my church, contact me! not that many people come here so.. anyway, my church (just mine, not the Catholic churches in general) is quite boring... most of our practises are uniform throughout the world, though there might be slight differences... can see how different it is from Christian churches though...

now back to doin my hw.. i havent started studying for anything, am i in deep trouble? everywhere, everyone around me is panicking, and mugging furiously, while i'm still uh.. slacking...

Saturday, August 11, 2007

waking up early this morning was soo worth it! so i woke up at 745 so my dad could send me down to yishun safra for this event mr tan organised... reached there at 845, and there was only mr tan and one of his church members who was studying in UK but happened to be on holiday?, joseph. so mr tan asked us to put stuff in envelopes as gifts for the people who turned up... there was this church thingy, the lizard sticker from hk shop and another sticker, and the envelope said "do not open until instructed" or sth like that(: then more of mr tan's church ppl came... then tpjc, sajc, vjc, various uni and a few rgs odacians summed up the turn out. it was quite sad, really, seeing as only andrealim and i were there from the start, and sihui came late but still in time for a climb, and wei and serene who went late for the talk... anyway, the talk was the highlight of the whole event!
mr lim kim boon (i THINK that's how his name's spelt :/) is really really pro, he attempted mount everest twice, the second time without oxygen, is one of the 2 qualified rock climbing instructors in singapore, and is leading the women's mount everest team later this year! still has lots of other achievements, but i cant rmb anyway... so yea, he showed us pics of how he started out with artificial wall climbing, then natural rock climbing, then mountain trekking, then ice and snow mountain climbing etc... it was sooo awe-inspiring!! the pics, they were amazing!! he climbs the great wall of China every year when he brings teams there to practise ice climbing or sth, and he climbed really cool mountains which has the southern and western side facing italy and the northern and eastern side facing some other euro country... ahhh just watching him present makes me want to be a mountain climber, like really into it, not just a once a year expedition with odac, then after i quit odac not any more... and nus has a mountain climbing programme known as Make It Real (MIR). i think i'd go to NUS just for that lor... sadly, i had to leave before his presentation ended ): but it was supeerrrrr cooool!! sihui knows, she was practically drooling next to me at all the pics...




bio concept maps are a torture...

Friday, August 10, 2007

yet another quiz... -http://similarminds.com/cgi-bin/city.pl
Extraversion 46%
Stability 56%
Orderliness 56%
Accommodation70%
Interdependence 70%
Intellectual 36%
Mystical 30%
Artistic 36%
Religious 70%
Hedonism 10%
Materialism 30%
Narcissism 50%
Adventurousness 63%
Work ethic 56%
Self absorbed 43%
Conflict seeking36%
need to dominate 36%
Romantic 36%
Avoidant 56%
Anti-authority 30%
Wealth 43%
Dependency 50%
Change averse 36%
Cautiousness 56%
Individuality 76%
Sexuality 36%
Peter pan complex 63%
Physical security 90%
Physical fitness 64%
Histrionic 30%
Paranoia 43%
Vanity 23%
Hypersensitivity 56%
Indie 45%

Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.
trait snapshot:
changeable, in the middle, suspicious, somewhat traditional, dislikes chaos, down to earth, group oriented, practical... you scored in the middle on the overall factors of this test.
and so my darling junior WENQI sent me another quiz, one which i took a long time ago
http://www.colorquiz.com/
and funnily enough, the results came out exactly the same, or as same as i could remember it to be...
Your Existing Situation
Working to improve her image in the eyes of others so as to obtain their compliance and agreement with her needs and wishes.
Your Stress Sources
Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and of separation from others. Believes that life still has far more to offer and that she may miss her share of experiences if she fails to make the best use of every opportunity. She therefore pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity and commits herself deeply and readily. Feels herself to be completely competent in any field in
which she engages, and can sometimes be considered by others to be interfering or meddlesome.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity but is inclined to be emotionally withdrawn, which prevents her from becoming deeply involved.
Your Desired Objective
Seeks success, stimulation, and a life full of experience. Wants to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt, to win, and to live intensely. Likes contacts with others and is enthusiastic by nature. Receptive to anything new, modern, or intriguing; has many interests and wants to expand her fields of activity. Optimistic about the future.
Your Actual Problem
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.
Your Actual Problem #2
Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.

righht, well seems a bit weird if the results came out entirely the same, or maybe i just din change? though i hear feedback which says otherwise...
hmm what happened when i was away from my comp? nonetheless, it's nice. well anyway, i managed to finish writing my english speech, but havent done anything apart from that...
my junior WENQI sent me this http://lost-forum.com/archive/index.php/t-12541.html go try, a bit random but yeah.. i'm lavender cheetah. -You are the fastest and most agile of all animologies. Because of this, sometimes you do things immediately without even stopping to think, and bad things occur to you. -Soul mate: Indigo Beaver -In conflict with: Saffron Rabbit. well least i'm fast :P

now back to filling in my bio journal, havent even started on concept maps or the annotation thingy...

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

nat day celeb was quite... okay. the finale was good though, really funny, and i liked community singing(: then after that went off for speech day rehearsals, which was a total waste of my time... whiled my time away sleeping, while the rest chit-chatted. then went home to bathe and slack a bit before my family went for dinner and movie.
dinner was great(: we went to this jap restaurant where we could charcoal-grill our beef/pork/whatever-else-you-order, and it's really cool. like that time when i was in japan... but the bill was really high so yea... anyway after that we went for a movie! finally, the last time my whole family watched a movie together was when "memoirs of a geisha" came out. we went to tm for that, today we went to cineplex... really crowded :/ i hate crowded places. anyway, we watched "rush hour 3"! haha i dont care that it got a rating of 2 stars (according to maggie), it was really funny and amusing and retarded!!! :D or maybe it's just that the last time i went for a movie was that time we went to watch "x-men 3" with my batch, so well, anything would be good to me... watever it is, rush hour 3 really amused me(: the other actor, forgot his name alr, is so funnily retarded! goodness, and the taxi driver! hahaaha the whole thing is just soo funny. should watch it... anyway tmr my family's going to chalet, but i most unfortunately am going to have to bring my hw there -.-" ah well, least i'll be away from the comp...






i dont care, i dont want it, you can have it, i want things back the way it was. why are you doing this to me? what have i done to you? as if what she has told me is not making me feel bad enough.

Monday, August 06, 2007

i think openess is a really warped concept. how can you say that someone is very open or very closed up when you're not her? i could be very closed for all you know, only you think i'm very open because i do confide and share things with you, only i choose what things, and i keep the more personal stuff inside. so then, would i be open or close?

the chapter just ended, ended on sunday/sat, whichever way you look at it. right then, i wasnt really thinking, but now that i look back and reflect, it really flopped, it didnt achieve the results i wished to get. and there's nothing i can do now. "a grim mood has gripped the country" only it's not the country. a lot of hw and stuff due, yet i spent my whole night doing something totally useless - my bio journal. i didnt even manage to complete it...

and all those thoughts swirling in my mind, i'm just glad you're here with me. we'll get through this together(:

i wish i could turn back time,
all those years back when we were just fine.
i cant believe how fast time has flown,
and how we've all grown.
all those times when we were chatting idly and life seemed ideal,
what happened to the times that now seem so surreal?

apologies for the small picture.


to the times that had been.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

so our last training session with our beloved sec 4 seniors ended with wakeboarding. sigh, really going to miss them. dont blame me if i break down on sat. anyway, wakeboarding was fun(: finally managed to stand up for a long while(: seems easier if the boat speed's faster, somehow. anyhow, those on my boat (cherm, andrealim, serene) were pro too. reckon i saw some jellyfish in the water though... the boat ride was really fun too, cos our driver (is that what you call them?) went really fast, so the front of the boat, the bow? was up while the hull? was low in the water. a bit like flying up, so fun that was(: but somehow, the other time we went seemed a lot happier... maybe cos wei wasnt around, screaming like a mad woman that she saw some back paddler :P actually i think it's cos it's the second time we're going back in 2 weeks, the novelty's worn off...

anyhow, feeling really reminiscent of when i was sec 1 ): boo, wish i could go back and visit those days.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

was watching some TV advert on tv, and i wondered, how can you advertise for some Hi defination tv on tv! i mean like, if the person's tv is really lousy, you cant see how good or clear the hi def tv is what... anyway, after that read mind your body, and there was this article about happiness. quite cool. there's this study to find out why are some people happier than others. and Professor Edward Diener of the University of Illinois came up with some Satisfaction with Life Scale. www.bbc.co.uk/happinessformula
and i came out to be:
Satisfied
People who score in this range like their lives and feel that things are going well. Of course your life is not perfect, but you feel that things are mostly good. Furthermore, just because you are satisfied does not mean you are complacent. In fact, growth and challenge might be part of the reason you are satisfied. For most people in this high-scoring range, life is enjoyable, and the major domains of life are going well - work or school, family, friends, leisure, and personal development. You can draw motivation from those areas of your life that you are dissatisfied with.
ah wells, i think now i'm just worried about my grades. i cant bring myself to study geog, it's such a torture. blegh :/