In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
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Saturday, November 24, 2007

like i said in the osl blog, in approximately 12 hours' time, we'll be in cambodia! and exciting though it is, i'm still quite scared. what if we forgot to bring sth majorly important! what if sth crops up halfway! what if.... :/

anyway, yeah i dearly hope that there is internet access there... hehehehe i'm the only one bring my laptop there (i dno bout teachers though...) so other people can download their photos xP imagine the possibilities...

hahahaha yeah i'm really really very excited bout tmr!! though sadly i dont get to say goodbye :( haha but i'm sure you'll come to read my blog so:

byeee sihui! haha too bad i know you miss me xP but if we're lucky, there'll be internet there and i can update on the OSL website!!

haha and to everyone else, cya in two weeks time!

Friday, November 23, 2007

from roy's blog:

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
haha duh no, i dont know anyone who is named jocelyne with an e.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
uhh no idea when was the LAST. maybe that time, though i may have cried in between, haha.

3. Would you say that you have great handwriting?
haha of course. though everyone else disagrees xD

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
lunch MEAT?! uh. anything.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
do i LOOK like i have kids. i'm underaged and still in sec sch... but i'd love to have some (when i grow up, duh), they're SOO adorable!(: when they're young, innocent and impressionable.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
i dno, i guess i would, but i really have no idea how other people perceive me. maybe you'd like to tell me?

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
haha of course. i learnt it from my dear friend lifang..

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
uh-huh. actually i have no idea what are tonsils xD

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
yepp. if i get the opportunity, and i want to do it with a friend!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
hmm, honey stars, froot loops? i dno, i actually prefer muesli bars..

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
nope. very seldom.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
physically, okay lah. emotionally, i dno. i guess so? mentally, i hope so. i mean, that's nearly what everyone tells me. or maybe just andrea(tan). "stay strong" :/

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
cookies and cream!

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
their personality/attitude kinda thing.

15. RED OR PINK?
uhh. dno...

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
uhh. i get very short tempered at times. i think/read too much into things. and many many more.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
right now, my parents and my little bro. but they'll be back soon! but more or less... my seniors :(


18. Who's your favourite person in the world?
i dno... my dad maybe?

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
black fbts, no shoes -.- i'm at home..

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
froot loops. and only cos i think i better finish it before cambodia, cos i scared it'll spoil or sth...

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
move along - the all-american rejects

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
i dno. anything lah, i dont really mind...

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
uhh... fresh laundry (haha a bit weird i know), THE odac smell (HAHA, not that it's very nice or anything...), and uh, food, when i'm hungry.

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
umm. i think my older bro, who called to ask if i called -.-

25. Have you been lonely before?
yeah of cos. i doubt if there's anyone hasnt felt that before.

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
i dont really watch sports...

27. HAIR COLOR?
brown

28. EYE COLOR?
brown

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
nope. why would i want to put pieces of glass/plastic into my eye -.-

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
uhh. no idea, it depends on my mood.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
duh happy endings, if you know me you know i hate scary movies.

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
HAHA. well. in the cinema, it would be the one i watch with tess and shaina. forgot the name xP otherwise on tv it'd be Chitty Chitty Bang Bang! :D that was really funny!!

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
black xD haha it's the support women's everest team 2008 one.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter. But we never get it in Singapore. (haha copy word for word from roy xD)

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
hugs. kiss sounds a bit uh gay to me. unless you're related to me, or you're some little kid (who doesnt know much)

36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
hmm. chng tng! the one my ah ma makes(:

37. The three people you will tell all your secrets to?
I dont tell anyone my secrets in the first place, let alone ALL.... maybe i've told some to some people, but yeah. that's about it. cos i hate being disappointed.

38. Do you trust easily?
nope. not really. you have to earn it, and once you've broken that trust, it's hard to get it back again. cos again, i hate being disappointed. and i have been.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
none, i'm on the computer... unless of course, you're like sihui who reads even while using the computer, or you're mugging for some exam...

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
hahah i like roy's "I don't have one. But if I did, wouldn't my mouse be on it. Hello... it's a mouse pad." but yeah, mine's blue, and i really dont know what it says, but it has a link on it. http://itops.gci.db.com or at least that's what i think it says, cos i cant really read it xP

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT?
cant really rmb if i watched tv last night... i dont think i did...

42. FAVORITE SOUND?
huh?

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
beatles, and only cos ringers played some of their songs before. have no idea what rolling stones are actually...

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
hmm... wales? :D i miss wales a lot.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
i dno, i dont think so. though maybe others do :/

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
singapore. mount alvernia, specifically. it's a catholic hospital btw, so yeah i think very few people heard of it :/

47.Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?
uh. in uni, hopefully living a very fruitful life...

48).What's your favourite song?
dno... depends on my mood.

49)Love or Money?
love. do i look like a money-minded person -.- or maybe there are people who think i do... D:


haha okay 1 hour plus more till my parents get back! then i'll go pack my luggage, do whatever else i have to, and go to sch tmr -.- seriously, i spend nearly my whole holiday in school... not that i'm complaining whatsoever, i enjoy what i do(: why else would i join what i joined....

psb(: osl(: congress(: fam(: RINGERS(: ODAC(:

just osl trip left, to end off my sch year. the end, the last of all my commitments for this year. and next year, it's a whole new journey again. but this time, you're the senior, the one others look up to. no more sec 4s. no more seniors giving you advice on this or that. no more anything.


At the beginning
We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

(chorus)
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there whenthe storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(chorus)

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

(chorus)

In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you

- for OSL.

i dont mean to be a bad Christian or anything, but really i think the cathetism (sunday classes/religious classes) classes i go for every sunday (not now, it's holidays) really dont teach me much about anything about my faith. maybe it's just my church, or maybe just me. the sermons arent very inspiring either... if not for my friends there, i think i'd just change church. or maybe i will, after confirmation next year...

Amen: To confirm/strengthen
(you know, the term we use after every prayer)

Alleluia: Praise the Lord

i really admire Christians love for God. not that Catholics dont have it, but it's just less pronounced. for one, we dont go round orchard road or anything handing out surveys. and you see it a lot less in church mates, as compared to Christian class mates.


One Way - Hillsong United

I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one I need
I turn to You and You were always there
In trouble times it is you I seek
I put you first that's all I'll need
I humble all I am, all to you

One way Jesus,
You're the only one that I could live for
One way, Jesus,
you're the only that I could live for

You are always always there
every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me
You will never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

One way Jesus,
You're the only one that I could live for
One way, Jesus,
you're the only that I could live for

One way Jesus,
You're the only one that I could live for
One way, Jesus,
you're the only that I could live for


You are the way, the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight, for you
We're living all for you

You are the way, the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight, for you
We're living all for you

You are the way, the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight, for you
We're living all for you

You are the way, the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight, for you
We're living all for you

One way Jesus,
You're the only one that I could live for
One way, Jesus,
you're the only that I could live for

You know how ppl always talk about climate change, yet very few people actually respond to it. i mean, you look at the newspapers. there you have it, talks of environmental disasters caused by climate change. the cyclone that covered the whole of Bangladesh; the jellyfish found in northern ireland and killed most of the salmon in the fish farm. all these caused by warmer sea temperature, a result of climate change. and the people talk about how detrimental climate change is, and how we should do our best to prevent it.

yet in the same issue, you have many many more articles about industrialisation, about one thing or another that mankind is doing is doing irreparable damage to the earth. Malaysians scouring some beach to find gold deposits (can you imagine the amount of destruction?!); South Korea intending to turn some coastal area into an industrialisation park or sth; branded goods being manufactured in developing countries (branded goods are seriously a waste of money and resources) and much much more.

we keep saying that we need to change, to help save our world from devastation, that we should live a sustainable life etc. but really, very few can actually do it. even me. i really would try my best to save energy and resources, but you know, i can never turn vegetarian, or not switch on my computer.

breeding cows (sounds wrong :/) and pigs and other stuff for their meat is an extremely expensive and energy consuming industry. yet we dont try to reduce the amount - instead, arent our demands even higher now?

our global population is in all probability, too much for our world to handle. look at all those forecasts, that we would run out of fuel in a few ten years' time; that we would run out of this or that within our lifetimes. yet on the other hand, you see governments promoting families, or encouraging parents to have more kids. it's just so conflicting.


i wonder if anyone who does fps (future problem solving) actually manages to come up with a feasible solution for this major problem. cos seriously, it concerns all of our lives, yet no one really cares about it. maybe we're just too used to this rather lavish lifestyle of ours to really want to change.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

ahh, back from odac lead camp! had lots of fun (and learning, of course) all thanks to our wonderful sec 4s(: who sadly, will be leaving :'(

will not elaborate on exactly what we did, but first day we did climbing! and kayaking! and running in the rain to save our tents :/ second day was trekking in pulau ubin and biking!! and then bbq and chalet(:

so i'd just like to thank vivian, chermaine, andrea, e-lynn, weili, cheryl lynn, serene, mr tan, mrs anis for making the camp possible and making it great(: mrs anis' little boy is very cute.

after we broke camp we went to changi village hawker centre to eat, then sihui siling went over to my house to shower. then i went to bedok to withdraw money, then the three of us went to chermaine's house. played cards, mostly.

i made friends with two little boys! mrs anis's son and chermaine's brother! they're both very cute(:

anyway after that went down to peninsula plaza to get my camera! finally... then took a super long bus ride home. anyway, now i've got a slight headache, i'm losing my voice and my thigh muscles are aching (from star jumps!) :/ hope i wont fall seriously ill in cambodia D:

incidentally, it's in THREE DAYS' TIME! i dont feel prepared :/


btw, the world has so many shiyings?! i just went online then
L-I-F-A-N-G says:
ohh btw whats shiyings number! i lost it
(okay she was talking about other stuff before, but she asked this about the same time as the other!)

Paul pull harder on the strings of matyr says:
is shiying online?

anyway, they werent talking about the same shiying... in fact, paul typed in the wrong convo -.- but still... (both of them were from my pri sch)


i hate ants.



Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
i dont want this year to end,
for the sec fours to be leaving.
there's still so much to know,
so much to learn, so much to give.


-dont leave me.

Monday, November 19, 2007

today had both odac and osl packing. so i had a luggage and a huge bag with me, so i took a taxi. the stupid taxi didnt want to bring me (and roy) to school, so i had to alight at chai chee (imagine! it cost $7!!) then take another cab with roy...
then cos of the asian summit, the school was filled with policemen and women... but they were quite... i mean they blasted music and kept eating....
anyway, packing was generally okay lah, ran here and there, up and down... and malaria pill was disgusting, but least i didnt have a stomach ache...
then after that roy and soffia and i went to plaza sing to eat, then to bugis. then poor soff and i followed roy everywhere, trying to search for a bag that she would be satisfied with. and it's no easy feat. we probably walked for like 1 hour ++, and still, she hasnt gotten one -.-" we couldnt find a shop which sold deuter backpack. i told her to just borrow her sis for cambodia, then go there buy! i'm going to buy my sch bag for next year there xP we even went to city link to find her bag lah, and marina square...
anyway, here comes the whole point of me blogging today, when i have so much left to do (farewell letters! D:) cos you see, my mom promised i'd get a camera if i got a high gpa for end of year (high for me anyway)... and although at that point of time it seemed impossible (no matter how i calculated, i'll be short of 0.05 or sth), i managed to hit my target! :D therefore, she owes me a camera.
and me being a suaku at such stuff, she got my bro to go with me, and gave me a budget of $300 (he told her it was enough! when it wasnt, really, if you wanted a decent camera...) yeah so anyway, i went with him to peninsula plaza (or sth like that) and there's this camera which costs $460 which i want!! it's waterproof, for 3m underwater for 2 hours... but it's $160 over budget :( so. IF YOU HAVENT BOUGHT ME A BIRTHDAY PRESENT, AND YOU'RE FEELING GUILTY, I DONT MIND ANG BAOS! (: $1 also can, i dont really mind. but i need $160 by like, thursday. so please please pretty please? i want my camera by cambodia :(
here's the link if you want to see it.

Friday, November 16, 2007

havent updated in a long time xP mainly cos i'm too lazy too... well let's start with FAM then!

FAMily 2007 was greatt! cos we've got a GREAT OT!:D went to Mandarin in the morning, met Chrisanda and Dawn at the lobby... so we went up to what we thought was Mandarin Court, and wondered why it was so small and cramped. until we realised we were at the wrong ballroom -.- so loser right! anyway yeah, after that the rest of the OT arrived and we started work! re decorating the place so it would look less china and more dazzling.. i hope we achieved it, cos we had a hard time putting up the banner and doing up everything! we made mr lau stand on ladders and chairs just to put things up or get balloons down.... xP but anyway, i had a great time(: though after the actual programme started i was feeling quite bored xP by the time it was halfway through i was quite sian alr...
the worse thing was, for the photo montage, I BURNED THE WRONG COPY INTO THE CD! :( so the photos were not very nice. sigh, and i think i deleted it alr.

slept over at the hotel, with other crazy people xD we finished everything at Mandarin court about 130am, so we went to the room, slacked around for a while, deciding what to do. then went to eat macs at lido there at 2+,3am in our DRESSES. xP cos we were all hungry, we ate at like 5pm... then went back to hotel, visited #15's room, finally went back to OT room to find SPSLs hiding all over the room... turns out that cos they were too noisy, the extras got chased out of their room and they came to seek salvation at our room... cos we were on a different floor with hardly any RG people staying there... slept early, about 330, 4am (the rest continued talking till like 6am?!)

woke up early in the morning at 730am with yingxuan and thashi to go school! before that stopped over at macs again to get breakfast xP so in total i slept about 4,5 hours? which was prob the most out of the OT which stayed over, cos apparently i took up a lot of space xP


13th nov was CXC. went a bit crazy. but anyway, it was fun xD

14th had orientation comm meeting, then went for CXC before going out for lunch with juan then odac comm meeting and then batch meeting. well yeah, played rummy between odac comm and batch meeting...

15th, CXC again. i decided to take a bus to sch for once, and found out it took me an hour on the bus, and i still had to change to 190 o.O after that my parents picked me up, we went for lunch, then went home. parents and younger bro went to shower + do last minute packing, then we chionged to the airport, cos they were taking a 4.55pm flight to shang hai. reached about 3.45pm -.- but anyway, yeah so after that, went home to shower, pack and go for ringers chalet!


Ringers chalet was fantastic!(: Shuna is a great cook in bbq. her bbq chickens are very good!(: not burnt, not undercooked. the satay was also very good, and the marshmallows too!!!!!!! watched peterpan, music and lyrics, and some other movies, while playing bridge. HAHA i learnt how to play bridge! xP quite cool lor. so yeah, slept at 4am!

then cos there was CXC today as well, woke up at 630am to call a taxi. it came in 5 mins... reached tanah merah mrt at 7am, and i took bus again (slept all the way:D) and anyway, reached sch at 820am. which is very very early.... so i went to the dance studio to sleep.

CXC was again, crazy today. had lots of fun though (: and i do NOT dance like a monkey!

and i was carrying around a soft toy dog cos my ringers batch gave it to me as a farewell present. :( i'm really going to miss ringers next year... and i'm really really glad and thankful that they do not hate me for quitting...

Ringers, 307, PSB, OSL :D



i realise my personality changes drastically depending on the company i'm with... from the least serious to the most serious, it's OSL, 307, Ringers, Congress, PSB, ODAC... i guess it's the expectations and yeah the people i'm around...


i dont want to think about it, no.



ohh! and i finally went to get a facebook account, cos i want PICTURES! same reason why i got a friendster account, really. xP I WANT FAM PICTURES, I WANT PSB FAREWELL GM PICTURES, I WANT PICTURES PICTURES PICTURES!!!


and i so want a camera now.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

i'm tired. are you that busy with whatever you are doing that you cant do what you've been tasked to do ages ago? if you are, please tell me, so i'll just do it and save me the trouble of having to remind you over and over again, and you replying as if i've offended you greatly or sth.
and same goes to you. if you think you have too much to do, just tell me. dont need to drop subtle hints or direct ones even. it's just plain annoying.

anyway, that aside, i AM seriously physically tired. i slept for 2 hours in the afternoon at that. :/ maybe i'm just getting old.

FAM's tmr! quite excited for it, though i'll be stuck back stage -.-" and although i havent really contributed much, as compared to people like the OICs, annie, thashi etc. but still, i hope all of them will enjoy it!(: months of hardwork had gone into making those 5 hours memorable for them!

Saturday, November 10, 2007

today's psb farewell gm was fun yet sad. got to know some spsls better, but the fact that this would be the last time we see each other as a board was very sad. took photos, needless to say, but i realise everytime i take quite a lot of photos with other people, but i never get them...

i think i'll miss some spsls a lot.

then after that i went to eat xiao long bao. uhh no idea what they're called in english. then went to buy tealight candles from ikea. but with my mom, we end up buying a lot of stuff. I LOVE IKEA! it's so environmentally friendly and the stuff there's quite cool!!

then went for evening mass cos tmr morning got KAYAKING! then my condo was having some family day thing and they were screening movies, and i managed to watch the second half of some jack neo movie, it was super funny! hahah xP

yeahh! KAYAKING tmr! :D i've wanted to go kayaking for ages! i want to go climbing too! and beach-combing!! i'm so so super sad! the day we leave for cambodia, the tide's super low lah! like nearly 0m?!?!!! :( I WANT TO GO LAB PARK THEN!!!


anyway, i'm convinced no one ever visits the osl website. i forgot to post on our cultural immersion, but no one noticed!!! :( sigh.


kayaking! FAM!!! :D so exciting FOC! OSL!!


-you know, at one point of time i was actually considering not joining any boards next year. no osl, no psb, no congress, nth. and now, it's nearly exactly the opposite. funny how things go doesnt it. it all depends on our choices.

Friday, November 09, 2007

hahah i'm posting my psle score now...

anyway i'm done with fam!! it's like the only thing i have to do for fam -.-" but i'm done with it! haha i koped it from all over the place xP xP

saving into movie file now, only 60% done :/


i think i'm rather unreasonable. you think?


sigh, should i join sln? should i join osl (next year)? should i join both? or should i join none...
:/ so much to think about, not enough memory space...


do you think i can cope? i think i can... and that's all that matters... right? :/



you know, some people say "dont be friends with people who might pass on bad influence to you". but they dont think about how maybe all the more we should be friends with these kind of people, that they will become better under good influence?



okay, saved and done. i'm finished with it after i send it out! (:

g'nite all. (rather, good morning, as sihui would say...)
woke up early this morning to go sch for sln interview... it wasnt that bad, it was just "to get to know me better"... boon hwee was after me, so after that we chatted, she's very funny... i hope she gets into sln!

then walked around the pavilion and psb room and GO, trying to find teachers and smiling and waving at them as they walk to and fro... slept at noon then woke up. visited ringers for a while (i heard they're having pracs on mon and fri!!) before going for osl..

IT lessons were quite interesting.

then anyway, went to get fam stuff in the evening... my mom wanted me to go pierce my ears, but anyway, the clinic doctor was out. haha it's damn funny, i've got a whole collection of earrings but no ear holes xP i think i have 3/4 pairs alr? and considering i DONT have ear holes, it's quite a lot xD

haha anyway yeah. now's like fam, osl, orientation and odac stuff due. kay maybe not odac, but still.


psb farewell gm tmr! :/ i dont want to say goodbye.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

I'm into quotes again!

"Your success is not measured by how much you make or who knows you. It's knowing that you made a contribution and some type of difference in the world around you. Always look at what you do in terms of what difference it's going to make." - unknown

"success is not measured by what you accomplish, but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds." - Orison Swett Marden

"All i have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all i have not seen" - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old" - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"If i have lost confidence in myself, i have the universe against me." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

I think it's quite scary how people like Ralph Waldo Emerson can come up with so many quotes! haha maybe he's just a genius...


today was fun. woke up at 9+, went to visit my great grandparents' grave, went to sungei buloh, went for lunch, came home and packed my tables (note plural) and had a wonderful 2 hour piano lesson.

sungei buloh was really interesting. saw monitor lizards, a couple of crabs, birds etc. and we spotted what someone said was an otter. but i seriously doubt so... got a couple of (really blur) pics, shall upload whenever i feel like it xP

piano lesson was a torture. i've totally lost interest in piano... and exams are like, next year :/ well passing grade 8 is all that's sustaining me now...


on the scary side, tmr's sln interview D: haha i've been through quite a few interviews (perhaps not as many as others, but still...) but least for all the rest, i knew more or less what to expected... plus this was on nomination basis... expectations, expectations, expectations again.

then to do fam stuff. then hopefully a little nap before osl...

how come my holiday's all about school?



Wednesday, November 07, 2007

righhto. back from lead camp!

well it was certainly an eye opener, different from all other camps i've been to. and i've learnt a lot, really.

i think i'm rather a late bloomer. haha.

anyway, do you think i should join sln? it seems like a good opportunity, since it's been offered to me. but yeah, i know i'm getting myself into a lot of things.

nevertheless, i'm not going to let that worry me! haha shall just let things take its course. if God wants me to, i will. interviews, interviews, interviews. not just for sln, but also gylc. do i want to go? i think i do. :D


sigh, anyway i'm suffering from severe short term memory now... too many things on my mind... that's why, my faithful companion the notebook is always with me!xP

now lemme share some stuff from lead camp! (i actually took notes lor, during debriefs and stuff)

"the success of the camp depends on the people" - Yen Lin
"leaders are solution-finders" - Mr James Ong
"leadership is about understanding and connecting" - Yen Lin
"Be confident enough of yourself and believe in what you're doing" - Yan Han

right. haha a bit lame lah xP but i think it's quite true.

and from this movie "Celebrate what's right with the world"
- vision controls your perception, and you perception controls you reality.
- Change is possibility

yeah and so on so forth. i have really learnt a lot, too many to post here.

but most of all, i want to thank my wonderful facils, Yen Lin and Yan Han and Mrs Priscilla Loh. cos they've really taught me a lot.


Sunday, November 04, 2007

i want i want i want! (i sound like a spoilt brat...)
i want to go sedili!! why why why! can i pretty pretty please miss (odac) lead camp on the last day?

sigh. why do i still whine when i know it's impossible...

then there's gylc, which will cost a bomb, and anyway i might not even be able to go...

back to earth, there's lead camp tmr. i wonder how it'll be... fun i hope... and i really hope my group gets odac's tents...

btw, anyone whose father has the ns mag, flip to pg 40 for sth interesting, HAHAH.


it's still early yet!


my mom's forcing me to take vitamin C. OHOHOH! my parents and my younger bro will be going to shang hai from 15-23 nov! i want i want i want to go too! :( sigh. sigh. sigh.

anyway, everything's so close! fam's next week, osl's in three weeks... i wonder if i should join osl next year...

Saturday, November 03, 2007

i've lost my thumbdrive. my drive to do any work. whether is it to pack my table, organise my stuff, or any organization's work. right now. i want my sleep, but i want to stay up.


i think it's quite difficult to find someone who actually truly understands you and what you're thinking.



If there's so much I must be/ Can I still just be me/ The way I am?


can i?

We are one - the lion king 2

Kiara is so cute...

We Are One - The Lion King 2

SIMBA:
As you go through life you'll see
There is so much that we
Don't understand

And the only thing we know
Is things don't always go
The way we planned

But you'll see every day
That we'll never turn away
When it seems all your dreams come undone

We will stand by your side
Filled with hope and filled with pride
We are more than we are
We are one

KIARA:
If there's so much I must be
Can I still just be me
The way I am?

Can I trust in my own heart
Or am I just one part
Of some big plan?

SIMBA:
Even those who are gone
Are with us as we go on
Your journey has only begun

Tears of pain, tears of joy
One thing nothing can destroy
Is our pride, deep inside
We are one

We are one, you and I
We are like the earth and sky
One family under the sun

All the wisdom to lead
All the courage that you need
You will find when you see
We are one
most people posted ytd, abt farewell assembly. well, i shall be one day late, but only cos i spent 2 days and a night with a bunch of super cool people (collectively known as PSLs) in a super cool camp (known as PSLTC) organised by a group of super cool people, led by a super cool person known as Sharon Chan. haha she's the camp commander!

let's talk backwards. PSLTC first. it was super fun and super cool, and i had lots of fun, thanks to my wonderful ship, SHIPS DON'T LIE and fantastic co-facils RESHMI NAIR and CHOO YEN LIN, although both of them deserted me today for piano theory exams... reshmi in the morning for grade 5 (haha she was the oldest lah) and yen lin in the afternoon for grade 6... :/

anyway, yeah i really had a blast these two days, got quite high, and got to know a lot more people. PSB '08 <3!


moving back a little, was a little 101 party. little for me, since i went for like, a few mins only? :/ i'm sorry... din quite get the chance to speak to them either...


back a bit more was odac meeting, where the news broke and yeah, we tao-pokked the sec 4s... i'm def going to miss them, and not just s4 odacians but all the s4s i've known in the past 3 years, cos now, there's no one else to look to for advice or a solution to a problem, we're going to have to cope on our own, and i'm not sure i can do it..

before that we got back our results, and although there are some OTHER people who did better than me, i'm still very pleased with my results, cos it's way higher than what i tot i could get(:

before that was odt and farewell assembly... quite okay i guess? i think i'm really going to miss that group of s4s, pseudonym soundwave or sth like that, who always go up to sing. they can sing really well!


so essentially, it was a very packed day ytd. oh and i didnt shower ytd night xP haha neither did a lot of other spsls! cos we were all so tired, we were afraid we'd fall asleep in the shower :P





i think back in the year, the times i've had with the different groups of people. my classmates, psb, congress, osl, odac, ringers and many others albeit for a short time only. and undoubtedly, i think i could say that the happiest and saddest times i've had were with odac. or about odac. but i do think odac gets me down sometimes, when i think about what i have to do next year, the heavy responsibilities, not just in terms of the WORK i have to do, but the expectations, the duties, the need to keep progressing and the large shoes left behind to fill. the others, mostly they wont stress me out, and i'd be more likely to get high with them. is that wrong?


and i dont ever want to be a sec 4.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

i was super tired today. no idea why, cos i didnt sleep especially late. anyway, came to sch and slept for a while, then went to collect psltc consent form, then went for farewell assembly. where i slept. for the most part. well the sleeping bag was a good pillow :P

yeah, i got vivian gan a sleeping bag, which isnt of a very pretty colour, but i wrote some stuff on it, so i hope she wont throw it back at me? :/

after that, i started whining, cos my class was going to west coast park for class party but cos of osl cooking classes i had to stay :( i so wanted to go!!

anyway, cooking class was... gross. we had to gut fish and chicken (though thank goodness my group didnt have to cook the chicken dish so i didnt gut the chicken :/) I think I'll go vegetarian for the two weeks in Cambodia.

Then after some running around with Soffia, had Congress GM. oh mann, it was so exciting!! WE GOT OUR CONGRESS BADGES!!:D hahahhah. oh and mr chew's our new teacher in charge. haha he's very funny, and what he's planned for congress next year (along with the exco) seems very exciting! (: cant wait for next year!

yeah join congress next year! (: it's an official leadership board, hahaha.

but i still think it's unfair, that all the leadership boards get badges while psb only has collar pins :( ah wells. not like it's going to change in the near future...

went to church cos today's All Saints' Day. um it's to um, recognise the saints in our everyday life! (or sth like that :/) like our parents who wake up early every morning to send us to school, our teachers who sacrifice a lot of their time and effort to teach us in every aspect etc...

yeah and so on and so forth. i went offline at 10+ so i could finish up vivian gan's farewell present in peace, then i went to shower, so here i am back now! posting on my rs blog now...




sigh, i dont look forward to tmr...





if you're trying to tell me how to do my job, the least you could do was tell me nicely and subtlety..



do i realise how busy i am going to be next year? no i dont, it'll prob sink in next year... or if i'm lucky (or otherwise) during the hols.