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Saturday, May 31, 2008

kayy finally back from church camp.

haha it wasnt that bad.. okay at the start it was. when there were only FIVE people. pretty amazing isnt it xD but well towards the end, there were twenty plus people so it wasnt that bad.

but the thing that stuck through the camp, was the obvious difference. guess being in rgs for four years rubs off, and im really used to the culture. so you see the difference between yourself and the rest. and it doesnt really help when you've had ten to twelve years of being strangers. honestly, we were the least bonded class of confirmation four there ever was.

ah wells, at the end we sorta got to know each other a bit better. through our favourite past time, bridge. cos most of them had school lessons, so i attended the slackest camp i've ever been to, and so we had lots of free time. which we used to play bridge and other various card games. and the best part of it was friday night, when most of us stayed up (nearly) the whole night to play cards xD

we actually set up three tables in the canteen, and started playing. so there was the beginner, intermediate and advanced table. of bridge. after a while (losing 5 times straight with the same partner), both of us got sick of bridge (cos we lost to our friend who JUST started learning) and went to play +1-1. with other people. haha super fun xD then we had level 2 which was +2-1 and level 3, +3-2 haha:P there were 6 of us, 2 from raffles, 2 from IJtp and 2 from vj and so we played. anyway we played a dozen other games, until most of the rest went back up to sleep about 4 plus. then my table went up at 5 plus. and we woke up at 7 plus. so yep, two hours of sleep (: haha my personal best.

so yep, i hope something's changed after the camp.. and yeah a bit incoherent, only had two hours of sleep since... friday morning 730am.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

class outing today. was the most exciting class outing i ever attended. started off with 6 and ended with 4 more. isnt it amazing? out of 33 of us, only 10 managed to spare some time. we counted, only about 21 of us were accounted for... sigh.

we had fun anyway, kalya's nice mom gave us a ride to the opposite bus stop cos it was raining very heavily, then we went to cine leisure. bought the 230 Made Of Honour tickets, ate lunch at the food court. tessa joined us, then as we were going up to get popcorns, soffia came along. bought our stuff and went to watch the movie. first one this year, if i'm not wrong, for me. haha xD

okay lah, the movie. didnt really get it and the jokes.. but oh man, i would like to be a Scottish Duke one day... haha beautiful scenary, reminds me so much of Wales! speaking of which, quite a number of my juniors are there now.. haha hope they enjoy themselves! though with our wonderful geog dept, i seriously doubt so...


church camp tmr.. and honestly speaking i'm not looking forward much to it.. cant find my papers for it, no idea what to pack/what time to report. ah well. back only on sat then..


third day of holidays down. didnt do any hw or run either. sigh, if this keeps up, i'm seriously going to fail my eyas. darned exams.



feeling very disconnected. and whenever i look at my inbox, and i feel overwhelmed all of a sudden. messages coming in from everywhere, that suddenly i have no idea what i'm supposed to do. and i get the feeling that i've forgotten something.

sometimes i feel like just taking a vacation and going away from it all. cant wait, 7th june.


Wonderwall - Oasis
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me


lyrics dont hold much meaning, but i like the song haha.



i miss osl 07. i miss nearly everything about 2007.

Monday, May 26, 2008

gonna sleep soon, so i can go airport in the morning tmr(: teachers are going off to cambodia, along with our letters! i really miss the meakea kids :/

good job to the sec threes and rafters by the way! third for inter school!! considering we're an all-girls team, when the rest are all guys xD


Superman - Five for Fighting
I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me
first day of hols(: sitting at home doing hw.

ah wells, the sooner i finish it and get it off my mind, the sooner i can go out and play all i want(: not that there's much time for that :/ sighs.

a week later, and i still cant get over it. sheeshh, i really need to study harder.



cant wait for eyas to be over. even though it's still far away and term three hasnt even started.




do it for the people who care.

Friday, May 23, 2008

Hold On - Spiderman 2
You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are

You tried to fill some emptiness
Till all you had spilled over

Now everything's so far away
That you don't know where you are
You are

(Chorus)
When all that you wanted
When all that you had don't seem so much
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto

For you to belong to

When it's hard to be yourself
It's not to be someone else

Still everything's so far away
That you forget where you are
You are

(Chorus)
When all that you wanted
When all that you had don't seem so much
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto

Hold on [4x]

Hold on [4x]

(Chorus)
When all that you wanted
When all that you had don't seem so much
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto
For you to hold onto

For you to belong to

Thursday, May 22, 2008

last day of lessons. well went quite okay anyway. liked the recess, free block, lunch part.

cant wait for the weekend to be OVER. no more open house, no more RRR taking up space in the limited space of my mind.

visited my paternal grandfather's sister's daughter's husband (essentially my uncle) in the hospital. he's a really funny guy. i really hope he'll get well :/

psb gm was quite fun, and got to know the psls somewhat better.




sigh, really hope i'll leave at the end of my term with no regrets. but up till now, there are still so many things i want to do, but having no time/energy to expend on them. try my best i guess.


last day of school tmr. we're mid way through being sec fours.

open house is going to be chaotic. wonder what's going to happen during RRR.

hope class party goes well tmr.

lots of things on my mind, and they're all jumbled up. some gets hidden in the mess, and that's when you have a memory lapse.

gonna have to bring: osl working camp consent form, rollerblades, class shirt tmr, climbing equipment tmr. think i'll look like a freak carrying rollerblades and climbing equipment. maybe they'll think i'm gonna skate on the rock wall.




well you're not helping, not understanding. for all that you say. liar.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

spm today was quite cool, havent done carwashing in ages(: mentors record: 15 mins! haha.

went for math tuition with lifang, where we got thoroughly scolded. for the umteempth time. ah wells.

tired out these two nights, been focussing on rs report, even though it's just the draft. osl camp proposal, and open house stuff too.

other stuff somewhere in my mind: taiwan, apcg, RRR, odac, logs comm, psb...

yeah and it's cluttering up the scarce space i have in my mind... :/ nevermind, one more day of lessons to go through. i'll make sure i study during hols though. grades like shite.

kay extremely tired out. not just physically, but also mentally. there's some chinese cheng yu for it.

i think when i'm subconsciously stressed, i break out in pimples. well not a lot, but yeah :/ sheeeeesh.


6 tests just pass, 1 fail. what a nice record.


thank goodness my favourite form teacher didnt say much today. according to my dad anyway.





just perfect. why do i even bother.

Monday, May 19, 2008

went to some horticulture garden near mt faber in the morning. pretty flowers and all. but not my type. i think i'm not much of a plant biologist.. ah wells.

apcg meeting in the afternoon. quite productive i guess.. we keep digressing though.. haha but i'm sure it'll be a blast when we carry it out(:


anyway. funny, i may be sixteen already, but i dont look it, dont feel it, dont act it. i still feel like a little kid, and i dont think i'll ever grow up. as in yeah, i may be serious when i want to, when i'm doing stuff, but usually apart from that, if i dont do any work, i dont act like a mature teen. i dont even feel like a teenager. is it a good thing or a bad thing?


cant imagine going to rjc. really dont want to. but then again, i dont particularly want to stay in rgs.



plan for the next half of the year:
- study harder. listen in class. sleep earlier

workload for the next half of the year:
- MYAs
- Taiwan Dwen An exchange programme
- overnight cycling
- APCG
- OSL
- End of ODAC/PSB term





The absurd things
are dumped on me
I can't get out of it at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
I don't want to do them at all.

my grades are sliding,
my work is piling
maybe it's best you leave me alone.
I've thought it through
I think it's true
My life's not ideal now.

When workload meets deadlines,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight

A project's due
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what I couldn't do
You're finding things that you didn't know
Well now that's something new you learnt

my grades are sliding,
my work is piling
maybe it's best you leave me alone.
I've thought it through
I think it's true
My life's not ideal now.

[chorus]
When workload meets deadlines,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a short extension won't make it right,
Soon there's no more light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.


okay that was just for humour. the original lyrics dont make sense anyway.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

How To Save a Life - The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
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And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Move Along - All American Rejects
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along
aching from rock master yesterday..

anyway, tomorrow's vesak day. only four more days of school left! (: not that sch hols will be much better, prob gonna have to spend a large part of it studying :/

anyway, rs report's gonna be due soon. i'll really miss my rs once it's over :( it's one of the best things i've ever experienced, and impacted my life greatly.


just to show you how diverse Singapore's shores can be. who says you have to go overseas to see cool stuff..
from top left to bottom right: squid, fiddler crab (?), snapping shrimp, leaf-porter crab, hairy crab, red egg crab, flat worm (or it may be a nudibranch), sun skink, moon crab (?), catfish, uh un-identified crab.

all found at lab park(:

Saturday, May 17, 2008

so we got back our interim reports yesterday, and mine was the worst i've ever seen.

so anyway, yesterday was a pretty crappy day too.

spent the night doing proposals and reports.




woke up early today for rock master. the place was musty and dirty, but overall quite okay, the shirt's quite nice. did okay too.

tried to go kayaking, but couldnt rent, so the four of us went to tampines mall to walk around and rent a dvd. crashed my house and watched.



i really cant imagine my holidays. probably filled with proposals, reports and homework. PTs, lots of them.

so many things happening in term 3. Taiwan Dwen An, APCG, IHG odac, overnight cycling and to top it off, EYAs.



i swear i will study hard and listen in class, and sleep early every night.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

today's the crappiest day ever. shall not talk about it.


my dad hasnt been picking me home for a few weeks now (since MYAs in fact). and yeah i sound like a spoilt brat, but i always end about 6, 7 plus. it's the peak period, i'm always squished in a corner on the mrt. which comes very infrequently. and i always feel like sleeping on the mrt, but obv i cant, cos i havent mastered the art of sleeping standing yet. (i think i will by the end of the year if this keeps up) and it's super annoying and scary to walk back home, cos the big shots up there decided that it would be nice if they turned the grass patch opposite my house into a spanking new condo (that no one needs). these poor guys apparently dont have a house/shelter to sleep in (despite the fact that they're building one for others) and have to sit along the pavement, at the park, on the benches (and they sit as though it's their home, with their legs pointing up to heaven) yeah i suppose you get the idea.


and now even if i want to go jogging at night (not that i would ever) i cant, cos i dont think my parents would let me out. and it's no fair, cos i see guys running every time i walk home. and i really think it's no fair to be a girl. sheesh :( one of the many reasons why it's better to be a guy than a girl.



and anyway, to top it off, my dad has just made an appointment to see my favourite form teacher during spm this wed. i cant wait.




lessons start proper tomorrow. sheesh.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

mya was seriously a holiday. and suddenly, the nightmare of a holiday ends, and waves of work crashes over you.

got home at 8plus, ate dinner and went online for a meeting. and none of them were online -.- havent showered, still clearing my mail and still got a crap load of stuff to do. fantastic, i can see my grades from here. it needs to be dug up.


:/ rockmaster on sat. pumpfest during my church camp. let's rock the day before school starts. nsscc the week before apcg (not that we can take part).


ahh fantastic, to top it all off, we're getting back all the papers tmr. crap crap crap.

Stop And Stare - OneRepublic
This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...





suddenly everything just seems to happen. too fast.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

crap papers today, english, chinese, geog and ss. let's not talk about that depressing topic.

so, semakau! here are some wonderful pictures to convince you that Singapore has fantastic stuff, and you should conserve wildlife!(:

here's how you monitor the seagrass, using a 50cm by 50cm quadrat.

here's what seagrass looks like. this species is Thalassia hemprichii, the one that we're most familiar with cos we work with them at Lab Park. (:

blue sponges! they're squishy xD

hairy crabs(: aka Teddy bear crabs. cos they're real furry!

trying to look bigger than it is, haha. they're adorable creatures, really. in case you cant tell, the bottom row, middle picture is of a hairy crab found at Lab Park(:

a fish, probably a goby.

this mushroom-like thing, i have no idea what it is...

this is what seagrass looks like from the top.. the water was about mid-shin height, where we were monitoring, and the sand was squelchy and there's this constant fear of stepping on sth scary like sting ray or a stone fish... but yeah(: the long leaves belong to Enhalus acoroides, the species with leaves that can grow up to 150cm long!

some coral polyps? no idea, heh :P

more coral thingies... haha i'm real glad i bought my camera, was a good investment(:

a worm.. probably a bristle worm, and it can hurt if you touch it, cos the bristles come off and get stuck in you...

the STAR of the day!(: Dr Siva found this, he said it was the largest one he's seen so far. the hand beside is for comparison.. it's called a Knobbly sea star btw... cos of the knobs, duh.

a series of shots of this infamous star along the coast of Semakau follows... heh cool, artistic shot eh? maybe i can go into photography after all...

the underside of the star...

this is the stomach.. sea stars are echinoderms, which generally refers to creatures with 5 legs or sth like that.. 5 something.. sea cucumbers and sea urchins are echinoderms too!

the tube feet of the sea star! they move around you know.. really cute!(:

heh, me carrying it. it's quite heavy...

kay this is a fan worm.. sorry not very good shot, cos i was afraid of making it close up. the worm actually buries itself into the rock thing, and those frilly things you see there are sort of the legs, if i'm not wrong. they catch stuff to eat...

Dr Siva caught a jellyfish, and this is poisonous... not very clear here..

mm, see the top part, the head thing? and the pink stuff's the tentacles.. the water reflection made it darned annoying to get a good shot, this is the best one i could fine... haha(: jelly fishing!

last but not least, mr lim eating a fresh oyster... kay no this is the wrong message, we want people to conserve our shores and our precious wild life! when you go to shores, please do not pick up pretty shells, cos they might just be the future homes of naked hermit crabs!

take nothing but pictures, leave nothing but footprints...



kay yep, so that about concludes my amazing saturday morning(: while most of you were probably still asleep...
if you're interested in more of this wonderful pictures, here are some really interesting blogs you can visit!
http://wondercreation.blogspot.com/
mm kay the rest of the people havent posted yet.. ah wells(:


it's amazing what you can see on Singapore shores if you open your eyes... octopus, sea stars (starfish), jelly fish, nudibranch (sea slugs), flat worms, sting ray etc..

(:

Monday, May 12, 2008

really really exhausted now. not just physically, mentally, emotionally drained too.

apcg facil training today was quite fun, if a bit draggy at times. food was good, for one(: and RI is seriously cool, soff and i would like to transfer there(:


hope everything turns out right. was just looking at my calender, and july's gonna be a killer. hope taiwan and apcg turns out fine...




checking of papers tmr, really not in any mood to see it.




the pretence.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Almost - Bowling For Soup
I almost got drunk at school at 14
Where I almost made out with the homecoming queen
Who almost went on to be miss texas
But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost loved you
I almost wished u would've loved me too

I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did 5 years and then 7 more
Cuz I almost got popped for a fight with a thug
Cuz he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cuz you ran away
And I wish I woulda had the nerve to ask you to stay

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessing and now I'm destined
to spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too

Here I go thinking about all the things I could've done
I'm gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton
I know we had our problems I can't remember one

I almost forgot to say something else
And if I cant fit it in I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessing and now I'm destined
to spend my time missing you
And I almost had you [x3]

I almost wish you would've loved me too

yep semakau was amazing, worth it, and lived up to my expectations(:

saw a huge knobbly star (a starfish) that was bigger than my face. (: obv cam whored with it, along with others, but i havent gotten round to uploading photos.

went to meet juan after that for lunch at dhoby, then went climbing. did lead outside, quite cool..

anyway, mother's day today was pretty.. quiet? my mom stole my chocolates, so i was quite mad at her >:( got past it alr anyway. haha her present is a photo stuck on cardboard. it says "HOME MADE" everywhere but it's the thought that counts right? xD

went to my aunt's house for dinner. my cousins all cooked, along with my brothers, for the parents. quite cool, the cooking is really up to standard. like really good. MY YOUNGER BRO'S CHAWANMUSHI IS REALLY RESTAURANT STANDARD. i swear, he's tons better at cooking than i am. (if you noticed, i didnt cook anything) his chawanmushi (i think that's how its spelt) is really good...

anyway, his birthday is tmr (or today actually) so yeah, he got this body board from me, a soccer ball from his bro and this science experiment kit from mom. oh and a tennis racket from dad. hai, lucky boy he's still a kid and gets presents. all i got for MY birthday, was 3 notes. (from my family i mean) there wasnt even any hype over it... my younger bro got to hunt for his presents..



kay, the second day of apcg facil course wont be in sch tmr, so yep(: hope it'll be fun..



never in balance.

Friday, May 09, 2008

Something Worth Leaving Behind - Lee Ann Womack
Hey Mona Lisa, who was Leonardo?
Was he Andy Warhol?
Were you Marilyn Monroe
Hey Mozart, what kind of name is Amadeus
It's kinda like Elvis
You gotta die to be famous
I may not go down in history
I just want someone to remember me

I'll probably never hold a brush
that paints a masterpiece
Probably never find a pen
that writes a symphony
But if I will love then I will find
That I have touched another life
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind

Hey Midas you say you have the magic touch
But even all that shiny stuff
Someday is gonna turn to dust
Hey Jesus it must have been some Sunday morning
In a blaze of glory
We're still tellin' your story
I may not go down in history
I just want someone to remember me

I'll probably never dream a dream
and watch it turn to gold
I know I'll never lose my life
to save another soul
But, if I will love then I will find
That I have touched another life
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind

Hey baby see the future that we're building
Our love lives on in the lives of our children
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind



which is essentially, why i do what i do. cos osl impacted my life in a way nothing else has.





though of course, odac and psb come close(: and rs, haha.
had the first day of facilitation course for apcg today, was quite fun(: my group's cool, BiQ ideas! haha long story about the naming. anyway yeah.. but fell asleep during facilitation. which was totally amazing, cos well we were all sitting in a circle and the facilitator from touch community was uh facilitating.

anyway, tmr's semakau! so excited(: i think tomorrow might just be a very fun day(:



and i just found out i forgot to mod. my graph for math exam, AHHH. crap.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

so we went to celebrate the end of exams. not that there was much to celebrate, the last paper was so horrible i was close to tears after i came out of the stupid hall. now i've got new fantastic memories of the hall, after i leave this school.

i have no idea what's wrong with the math department, i already have 20 marks less just not completing the paper. and this is the FIRST paper i didnt complete since ages. sheesh, i think they just want to spoil our party. probably cooperated with you-know-who and set such a stupid paper that we'd all go home and sulk and not go out and be a public nuisance. if it WAS the end of exams, we would not hog mcdonald's seats. we have better things to do than that, thank you.

anyway, yeah so went for the first apcg meeting. quite excited for it xD though it sucks that the rest of the world will be mugging in that week :/ ah wells.

"rushed" with juan to meet nair after that, the poor girl was sitting at a corner of dhoby ghaut mrt station, with a shirt that says "i want to have something to do" or sth along those lines xD anyway yeah so we ate lunch with a couple of other people (weirdoes, they are) and went to toa payoh with yi fei and played badminton. haha the cc we went to was next to the polyclinic i went to last year for wep!

anyway so we talked about sch and stuff for a while, before leaving for bishan, but went back to dhoby ghaut because of someone. so annoying, she is. anyway, ditched her and so nair and i went to ps, where she bought some food and we went up to the cinema there to emo. haha people must have thought we were mad but whatever, it was fun(:


kay i desperately need to go climbing, havent gone for ages. haha i wouldnt mind soccer either xD but no way would i join soccer in rjc haha. climbing club! rjcc xD okay nvm.


semakau! :D super excited. like really. this is seriously one aspect of my life that our school influenced greatly. (:





it's a bit too much.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

physics was a disaster. but nevertheless over. sigh, really dont want to get it back... felt just like ss..


went to study bio at juan's house along with the twins.. quite productive, and i managed to study a leetle chinese too... kay i just hope it's enough for tmr.. :/ i really really want to do well in bio.. haha but studying bio was hilarious xD shall leave juan to do the quotable quotes!


semakau :D haha i dont care if people dont understand why i would be excited over counting seagrasses. it gives me the same thrill as rockclimbing :P which i havent done in about two weeks! oh man, should go climbing sooon! so many things i want to do, hope there's enough time!! xD


bio, chinese, math! before celebrations(:



Wonderwall - Oasis
Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

Monday, May 05, 2008

How to Save A Life - The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life



just started hardcore mugging for physics:/
wahahaha my 407 post! (: seriously, my class is such a mugger class, it's quite scary... and i think my class is a microcosm of singapore! xD

anyway, today's chem was um quite tough i suppose, but yeah. over. went home after that, but twins crashed my house in the afternoon. so we "studied". or tried to... ended up sleeping (the both of them), eating, and towards the night PLAYING SOCCER. haha it's seriously fun, we were all watching tv, then my older bro came home and he gave my younger bro his present, which is a soccer ball. so we all promptly went out to play. AND WE ARE ALL NATURALS AT THE GAME OKAY. repeated falling over the ball, missed kicks, fall-into-the-pool kicks, run-down-the-slope kicks etc. it was super fun(: haha. i think i might just enjoy soccer. much more than golf at least...


semakau this sat! so excited for it xD haha(: sad that lab park this fri is cancelled though :(


okie dokie, i'm feeling elated and happy now, cos there's semakau, apcg to look forward to! nvm that we still have physics, bio, chi functional writing and math... which i havent started studying for :/

(: tmr then!

Sunday, May 04, 2008

intense brainwashing: i am NOT going to die for chem tomorrow.

btw, good luck to those still mugging for lit.
feeling very miserable, i've got a horrible flu (or cold, i dont really know the diff). from the moment i wake up till i sleep, i've been sneezing and sniffing. i dont understand how come i have that much liquid to lose.. in any case, it's most inconvenient and horrible, and it's gotten worse since the past few days... and i cant go anywhere without tissue. i actually used up my whole box of tissue studying yesterday. the whole bin is filled with used tissues.

anyway, wow i'm very proud of myself, i was at home the whole of yesterday but didnt switched on the comp once! went out at night to celebrate my grandfather's birthday though. but haha wow never knew i could do that xP

craps, i'm really very scared for chem tmr, cos i cant do a lot of questions! havent memorised the tests, cant remember the oxidation states/charges/solubility table and whatever crap. shoots.

anyway, back to mugging. chem, physics, bio, chinese, math and it's over! (:




unexpected.

Friday, May 02, 2008

slept for three hours in the afternoon, and so i shall post wakeboarding pictures.

first, a series of "look ma, no hands!" posts xD





#16 '05 photo! haha should compare it to the one we took when we first went wakeboarding..

#16 '08 photo! minus two who were on the other boat..

the COOL boat photo (:

and simply because i am evil XD
















hmm, well shall not be that mean.

:/ the rest of the photos were not up to standard, blur and dark and what-not, so i shall not post them up. hope they all had a good time anyway(:




seems like such a long time ago.
we live in such a dynamic world, that nothing is ever still, ever stagnant, but always, always changing. and sometimes, i dont know if it's for the better or for the worse. let's just take it one step at a time and see how it turns out.

comp is super lagging, maybe cos i'm trying to upload photos into my photobucket account two tabs at a time. :/ i realise i have 30gig of photos, precious precious memories.need to upload all of them and back them up into an external hard disk just in case anything happens.


today was a horrid horrid day. started off with lots of suans, and ended off with them too. i swear, the whole world was out to get me today:(

eng went quite okay, i thought, but geog was horrible. got two concepts wrong, and for 7m and 8m questions some more :/ ah wells. hope it doesnt kill my geog. only 5 more exams left, thank goodness.

while i was walking back home today from the mrt station, i witnessed a very interesting scene.. there was this um lady (she's not really lady-like...) in a bright red dress-shirt kind of thing. she wasnt very skinny, and the thing was kind of small, so it just looked weird on her. she was pulling a luggage and pushing a baby pram, and the whole time she was just screaming her head off (yes, literally screaming) at this guy behind her. i have no idea how they are related, or what language she was speaking (but i did hear some dialect vulgarities...) they were seriously causing a spectacle lah, but i dont think the woman realised? she just kept screaming at the guy, and later i saw her taking the luggage and trying to hit the guy with it.. the whole time the guy didnt say anything lor.. then after that she just pushed the pram and walked off, and the guy crossed the road. kind of a lame ending, and i have no idea what happened to either of them afterwards. hope the poor baby is fine though :/




i have come to the realisation that there can never be equality on this earth.


and that the equilibrium is really set such that when you are happy, i am not, and when i am, you arent.





i dont want to think about it. leave me in blissful ignorance please.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

you know the phrase "one man's rubbish is another's treasure"? i think it applies to almost everything..
someone's happiness, may make someone else feel sad. dont you think? cos after all, it's nearly impossible to make EVERYONE feel happy, cos we all have different standards for happiness, and what makes us happy. and in any case, it's like uneven development, there is no way there can be equality for this kind of stuff. some will always be better than others. just that the standard will become higher. cos we're all competitive people, and if we see someone who's catching up, you'll run faster yourself.


this is all very negative, and it's not good when you have two killer papers tomorrow. i think the more i do, the higher the expectation i get of myself, and the more nervous i get. applies to everything.


but no matter what, i count my blessings, and i do think i've got the most major one of all, the ultimate blessing; i've got a great family(:
dad's birthday today, went out to a nice chinese steamboat-buffet restaurant. quite cool. and i made a cool present for him, one day i shall take a photo of it and upload it. and prove for once that i do have artistic talents! :P


cant wait for post myas. seriously. though in some ways, also not very looking forward to it. :/


Bad Day - Daniel Powter
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day




should have known that the moment i switch on my computer, i wont be able to study.