In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
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Thursday, November 27, 2008

2 days to OSL Cambodia!

i'm feeling apprehensive, nervous, a bit unprepared, but really looking forward to going back to see the rice fields, clear blue skies, billions of twinkling stars, the kids at meakea, the students at sok ann and everything(:

after all, we're now going back in the capacity of a mentor, and expectations are different. we have to facilitate the learning for our juniors, and that is some pretty heavy responsibility. but no matter what, i just hope we'll all go there, appreciate the beauty of Cambodia and learn as much as we can. and maybe, come back bursting with new ideas and thoughts, hoping to change something.



on an utterly random note, apparently i was on tv on tues night, channel u, in this programme called City Footprints. about seagrass :D dang, missed watching it though. cant even rmb what i said. ah wells(: my first debut on national tv (even if no one, except one junior of mine, watched it) :P


the first time i'm at home in the middle of the day since Os ended i think? and on sunday, it's off to Cambodia! wont have a chance to blog about cambodia once i'm back, cos i've got a midnight flight to China (ha er bing D:), back only on 23 dec. and then i'll be going kl with batch from 27-29. so i'll be in singapore for all of 5 days in dec! (my climbing's gonna suck :( )



happy holidays! go and pick up a new hobby (such as CLIMBING!), or take up a third language, if you happen to have lots of time(: or you could always get a part time job...



Something Worth Leaving Behind - Lee Ann Womack
Hey Monalisa, who was Leonardo?
Was he Andy Warhol?
Were you Marilyn Monroe
Hey Mozart, what kind of name is Amadeus
It's kinda like Elvis
You gotta die to be famous
I may not go down in history
I just want someone to remember me

I'll probably never hold a brush
that paints a masterpiece
Probably never find a pen
that writes a symphony
But if I will love then I will find
That I have touched another life
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind

Hey Midas you say you have the magic touch
But even all that shiny stuff
Someday is gonna turn to dust
Hey Jesus it must have been some Sunday morning
In a blaze of glory
We're still tellin' your story
I may not go down in history
I just want someone to remember me

I'll probably never dream a dream
and watch it turn to gold
I know I'll never lose my life
to save another soul
But, if I will love then I will find
That I have touched another life
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind

Hey baby see the future that we're building
Our love lives on in the lives of our children
And that's something
Something worth leaving behind


a song that i will never get sick of hearing

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

brilliant! got a hair cut and now i have bangs. i was looking through some photos of when i was still a cute little kid, and i look pretty much the same. (as in the haircut)

i realise now, that my icyl group SUU KYI (sushi!) took A LOT of photos :P

some random photos now.


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Suu Kyi! during the 3rd night when we got to bring the delegates out(:
Suu Kyi! last day, closing ceremony

and those were just two of many many photos. and i have so many un-glam photos! D:





osl is in 4 days!

Friday, November 21, 2008

2nd RGS-ICYL is over :( and though it has been a tiring week, it was worth it. ICYL was really fun and enriching and probably one of the last times i get to facilitate (unless i do it as like a volunteer or sth) there were delegates from australia, hong kong, the phillipines, malaysia, india, indonesia and vietnam and of course, singapore(: and it was really a lot of fun (reminds me a bit of dwen an, and a bit of apcg)

talks were really interesting, even though lack of sleep made me drowsy some times :/ but the highlight was Operation Make A Difference (OpMAD)!! initially it was just to give out bottles of water to people along orchard road whom the participants thought needed it. but i'm really glad that OT decided to make it freestyle, cos the ideas that the participants came up with were amazing, just with the theme Make A Difference and Do A Random Act of Kindness(: my group sang christmas carols (actually mostly only We Wish You A Merry Christmas) at the junction outside Shaw House and greeted all the passers-by. and yeah, though most singaporeans are usually in a rush to get here or there, it was heart-warming to see them smile at us for even a sec, some even joining in the song and such (though they were mostly non-singaporeans :/) and we gave free hugs along with the bottles of water and our tea (bread).


but well we had fun and learnt a lot, and i think the participants really understood the subthemes of Lead, Embody, Advocate and Dare by the end of ICYL :D


next up, odac lead camp and then OSL!


-photos of fam and icyl will be up at a much later date-




"Be the change you want to see in this world" - Mahatma Gandhi

"To Laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty;
To find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived;
This is to have succeeded"
- Ralph Waldo Emerson (though it is being debated)

Thursday, November 13, 2008

shaina and nair came over on tues, pretty fun(: we stayed up, ate peanut butter/nutella bread in the middle of the night and chatted till like 3am xD then the next day, went over to nair's house (: spent the afternoon with them and soff, walking around heartland mall, putting on make-up/nail polish (i would never have thought that i would be doing this when i entered rgs in s1) and basically dressing up. and arrived at marriott, late and wet. fam item was pretty much a disaster, blew flour not fire (haha though juan's fire was really nice xD) and heh played all the wrong chords. ah wells(: and i thought i would be miss disaster, but apparently the fam comm's too nice(: haha well they put in hard work, though it ended really early and the food was horrible. my dinner comprised 50% m&m's (hail nair's brilliant idea to bring those), 25% cookie, 25% actual food. okay maybe a bit of corn flour.


then went to nair's house with soff and watched Don't Mess With The Zohan (at least we did, soff just slept) and it's a pretty stupid movie. but ah wells, entertaining, if a bit sick. woke up this morning (near afternoon) and with soff, lugged my huge bags + keyboard to sch, for icyl facil meeting.

and that about concludes my entire fam08 experience(: oh not to mention the photos, but sadly, i still dont have a camera, so photos are scattered over the many cameras with many people. but i'm sure i'll find them somewhere on faceboook :P




2 days to icyl. 1 week to odac lead camp. 2 weeks to osl. and that will really be the end. when i no longer have to go to rgs for various stuff and events. no more late nights doing proposals/reports/other stuff. that's when the real holiday starts.






time, is a real and constant motion always,
rolling us along.
tell me who, wants to look back on their youths and wonder,
where those years had gone.







give it your all, give it your best, and look back with no regrets.
fam08 table32 picture(: me, soff, nair, shaina, liang si, tessa, ziyi, kalya, liang zi, junru(: picture courtesy of nair!<3

Monday, November 10, 2008

i swear, fam is going to be a (fill in your own word). darned, it's annoying.





cleared out all my worksheets accumulated over the past 4 years, as well as my numerous textbooks (that i hardly looked at). and then, i shall be a geek, buy my A level texts and start reading up xD though i doubt i will actually do it.




ringers chalet was really fun(: i really miss them, they're a great and fantastic bunch :D bbq, playing a few games, sitting around and just chatting. really, with them, i feel at home. no stress, no worries. and i will miss the juniors a lot, cos they're the sweetest, nicest bunch of juniors (as a whole) that i've ever met, in this four years. and am a lot closer to them then others. gah, i miss handbells, ringing and ringers :(





well i didnt really know what to expect, but now i know. and no matter what, at least i'm able to prepare myself better for the next one. which is more important. good luck to those who are still in the running(:

Saturday, November 08, 2008

seriously, fam item is going to be so screwed. gah, it is annoying and wth, i'm going to embarass myself :( (okay i can imagine people going "but you always do")


went to my mom's bank's house. it's really huge. it's at 6th avenue, in bukit timah, and only for rich people. it has an effing tennis court, swimming pool (with a diving plank), there are THREE sort of apartments in that one house (so 3 familes can stay happily together), a LOT of space. seriously, they have this snooker table, that's like the size of... maybe 2/3 the length of an sbs bus? and a LOT of tvs, furniture, fridges etc. there's even this underground tunnel thing. it's really huge and really cool. cos my mom works in a russian bank (that is hardly known), so the house used to be for the rich russian bosses. only they're selling the place now, so my mom has to like, sell all the stuff and make sure it's empty for the next owner.

it's really cool okay, i would like to live in a house like that. only maybe a bit smaller lah, cos so big, can you imagine, you'll need a pa system just to tell everyone that dinner is served. but anyway, my time there was spent packing a LOT of wine glasses (like 8 boxes full). it's amazing the amount of things they have there.



and i went climbing!:D but i fell down lead climbing :( i hate falling. ah but overall i think it was a good workout, havent exercised in like a week! should go climbing more often(: but D: i'll be overseas 3 weeks in dec, my standard is going to droooop like crap. i aim to be a 6c climber by the time i'm 21 (i'm currently a 6a, 6a+ about there)





it's 4 days to fam, and i still havent gotten a dress! how smart(: ah wells.



sleep is good, people(: sleep more. you'll be smarter, taller, slimmer and happier!





expect change, embrace change, execute change.

Friday, November 07, 2008

end of lead camp 08. been a year since lead camp last year, such a long, but at the same time short (a bit contradictory), year. ahh i dno, so much seems to have changed: people, places, things etc.

but i hope all those who went through lead camp this year enjoyed themselves and learnt more about how to be an effective leader, and will carry out their terms well and meaningfully in the coming year(:


irs today was pretty short. oral presentation was slightly screwed up, we were all freezing in the lecture theatre, and well, didnt really present/ans questions well, i felt. exhibition booth was little better, but ah wells, least we got silver(: ri and nus high (who both did math stuff) got gold, which i feel they fully deserved it cos their projects were really good and a lot of effort and work had been put in, and dhs, acsi and us got silver. not bad lah, i guess(: interesting experience, learnt lots (over lunch) and well, it's the first and last time i ever represented rgs in an academic competition (of sorts)




things i learnt today:
- people dont like being told that they are wrong, especially when they are adamant that they are right.
- sometimes, it's better to just keep quiet and not say anything, cos there are just some circumstances when the more you say (no matter how well-meaning you meant), the worse it gets.
- people dont really care, until something big happens to make them care.








and for all the crap that she had to stand these two years:
really, i think it's pretty amazing that she somehow could stand the times when i was just crazy, whiny, sulky, annoying etc.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

yay it's a day late, but HMT O levels are like FINALLY over! :D wasnt nervous at all, maybe cause well, i know if i do badly, i'll just have to take it again next year (which is a pain, but not much cause for worry)

lead camp! today was quite fun(: and it's amazing that i didnt fall asleep at all, considering that i slept late last night (at 2 am, finishing my rs report for irs, which i found out today stands for individualized research studies)





honestly, holidays dont seem like holidays. still going to sch everyday, to do sch-related stuff. ah wells, not complaining, wont get to go rg much next year.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

as life goes on, it gets more complex.

a baby, perhaps not easily satisfied (if you get a kid like me who keeps crying) but at least you know they're just either happy or not. no in-betweens.

a toddler, making friends come into play. you want to be friends with everyone, be the teacher's pet. or perhaps not. but still, life's pretty simple. you have food to eat, water to drink, clothes to wear, things to play with.

a primary school kid, things start to get complicated. homework, tests, exams, and your image; how people view you. you start to feel frustrations, annoyed, perhaps for the slightest reasons, for the silliest reasons. but overall, you're still enjoying life.

in secondary school, work load starts piling. as you start to mature, you start handling more things. and you also start to realise life is not a bed of roses, as your parents start to trust you with more things and you read newspapers and become more informed of the world around you. maybe some have to start worrying about further education, food, living expenses etc, but mostly, you just worry over the results of your major exams, about friends and relationships and stuff like.

and as we go on, more layers are added, life becomes more complicated, more complex.


and that's life.




Chinese Os tmr. like my tuition teacher said, i've gotta be lucky to get an A (whether A1 or A2). well i'm fully prepared to take chinese next year.








things i've learnt in the past few years:
if you dont help yourself, no one else can/will.
appearances are highly deceiving.
best thing to do usually, would just be to sleep it off.
dont think too much.
pray hard and may God bless you.






and if you are a s4 taking HMT, and actually bother to visit this place before your Os, here's a good luck to you and God bless. remember to bring a sweater, tissue (in case of emergency), ID card and entry proof.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

two days to go, and i'm still not studying as hard as i should. ah whatever, let me just suffer the repercussions (of having to study chinese for the next year)



on a random note, let's take a look at what gets jocelyne riled up. you do not want to be around me when:
- i have nothing in my stomach and wont be getting anything anytime soon
- i have been kept waiting (you were supposed to meet me 10 mins ago but came ages later)
- you did not meet my expectations time and time again (you keep disappointing me, ie you were supposed to do sth but never did it)


cant think of any at this moment, but if you know of any, please do tell me. it's nice to know your own shortcomings.







the only reason why i ever bother is because no one else does.

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Climb On! today was a really new experience. woke up to a wet morning, but the rest of the day a nice, cloudy, though humid afternoon.

the routes were pretty interesting/novel, like some that included ending by sitting atop the block. got really horrible scratches/abrasions there though. now my climbing injuries extends to scratches/abrasions, apart from the usual bruises and calluses :(

but overall it was okay(: managed to get into top 10, surprisingly, considering it was U18. when the event started, there were so many people, you never knew the climbing community in singapore was so big (:



speaking of climbing, anyone who is currently a s4 and is going to rjc next year interested in taking up climbing as a sport? climbing is fun, trains your strength and endurance, it is really cool and you get to exercise all four limbs equally, as opposed to racket games that focuses more on one side xD if you like climbing, and would like to join competitions/climb for fun and improve your technique, please contact Tan Juanmin or me. (if you visit this blog, i'll assume you have my number/msn/some form of communication, at the very least.)




"wasted" a whole day though, didnt manage to study any chinese. it is in 3 days. i think i am so dead D: