In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
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Friday, June 26, 2009

didnt feel like blogging much, the past week.

but the last week of hols, was quite okay. managed to study with soff twice and shaina once (: sighhs really miss being classmates with them.



am feeling super unprepared for cts, yet at the same time i cant wait to get over and done with it.



kay, need to focus on studying. jia you (:

Monday, June 22, 2009

spent a whole day in sch studying with soff. was kinda productive i guess.

super sian at the thought of srp again. but well, i guess just this week more. am starting to panic over the damnneedd project, cos well, if i cant ever identify the organisms, then my project is essentially zilch.



dont really know what to think about the cts. i suppose well, if i'm going to fail, then i'm going to fail.

looking forward to the end of cts already. and it hasnt even started D:




and i miss my daddy. he's in china, on some business trip :( pray that he'll have a safe trip home, and wont get quarantined.



feeling extremely tired for some reason or another, and tomorrow's gonna be another tediously long day.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

it's halfway through the year, and i'm starting to think again, and reflect. even though i'm supposed to be studying.

everyone seems preoccupied with mugging for cts, else doing their own things. perhaps it's just cos i've been away for a week, but that's probably just an excuse. but i hardly know what's going on in other people's lives, the lives of people whom i used to hang around almost everyday, in the past.


in other words, i think i'm drifting. we're so caught up with our own (and rather different) lives, and while that feeling of friendship and concern is not lost, it's just that now, we're no longer constantly up to date about each others' happenings. except perhaps through facebook and blogs.




am being extremely undisciplined ytd and today. i guess i wouldnt be too surprised if i end up failing my cts, at the rate i'm going. it's really quite alarming how hard other people have studied. or are studying.




each one of us, is given a life to lead, whichever way we want it. the choices we make, the decisions we take, they all define the way we live our life. we cant have everything in life, but ultimately, the most important thing is to be happy with our lives.



i really dont know what to think now. the vacation and reading of fiction leave me with a distinct sense of removal from reality, a bit surreal.




i think i depend a lot on spontaneity. after you're away on holiday, when you come back, people ask, how was your trip? i havent even blogged about it yet, but as much as there is lots to say about it, i dont feel like blogging about it just yet. too time consuming perhaps, or exhausting. i dont even know what to answer to that question. great? it was awesome?

i enjoyed myself, that's for sure. something which is starting to be seriously lacking in my life, and presumably the lives of many others.



and i'm really living for the future. for the time when i wouldnt be bogged down by all sorts of stuff, but am free to do what i want to do. and perhaps, sometimes also living in the past, thinking and dreaming of all the times gone past.




it's quite interesting to think, how different my life would be, had i chosen to take a different path. if i had joined a sports cca, or council, perhaps.

Friday, June 19, 2009

back from vacation, straight into reality.

it was a very nice break from reality, even though srp still somewhat haunted me while i was up there (i actually dreamt i was flipping over stones, and i picked up this long pink worm.)

made the summit with my older bro, and it was really cool(:

but i dont really feel like blogging now, will update more another time.


meanwhile, it's slightly more than a week more to CTs, and i'm much less than prepared (unless it's to get a fail).




everyone mugging, is scaring me.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

yay jocelyne feels the need to tell the world that she is not gonna be in singapore till friday. :D


hahah today was an awesome day. 7 hours with roy, shaina, soff, reshmi! and the whole time was spent EATING (cos of soff) and moving from tampines one to tampines mall to century square (briefly). and going to bk for breakfast, bbq chicken for lunch, walking around, j.co donuts for tea and cheeseburger at macs for soff for after tea. that girl is amazing, seriously.


sighs it was really nice to see them again (:

Friday, June 12, 2009











yay today is a happy day for me (:

it's RESHMI NAIR'S birthday today! :D :D happy seventeenth, my dear girl (:

and it's so awesome, cos God makes everything fall in place. she was supposed to have class in the afternoon, but it got cancelled! and roy was supposed to have some sort of sleepover but it was also cancelled! (: simply awesome:D


unglam photos alert! :P sorry nair, it's just sth i have to do.
<3 hahah

wahhh haha kay i miss s3 and s4 damn lot.



sighs i shall not think about srp or cts. shall not ruin my only one-week break.

:D :D



shall pay for the break after that. with insane research on worms and slogging over bio chem math econs.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

really exhausted. not looking forward to going out in the work force. i think this is worse than sch term. if only cause you have to catch the boat to SJI and back. pretty slack around there. but it's just annoying how you cant go there later than 9am or leave earlier than 5pm.


and i see all those little kids and toddlers, full of boundless energy, running here and there, bouncing up and down, and i always admire and wonder, where do they get all that energy? for one, i guess they have less to worry about. all your needs are provided, seriously. rmbr had a camp for p6 maris stella students at sji from ytd to today, and like, they were really very well fed. chips and ribena and cookies and cakes and bee hoon and chicken wing and all. not like us, they didnt even tell us we had to pack our own lunch, till we were there on the first day.
and i see how my younger bro can never sit still, always fidgeting about and moving around. while i will just sit and stone there, too lazy to move. and i guess, as we grow older, we try to pack more things into the same limited amount of time, such that at every chance we get to sit and rest, we just do that.



and half the holiday is nearly gone. i'm getting quite worried for my CTs. just hope that srp will be worth it.



on the bright side, saw some pretty cool stuff just now. shall post pictures later. my camera is getting wonky again. if it dies on me, it'll be the 4th camera that's had its life snuffed out by me in 5 years. and this one barely lasted half a year! D:

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

cos i'm on a slight high now, and am doing random fb quizzes..


Little Miss Magic
Well i reckon you can be a bit shy at first but once you get to be known your all bright and bubbly and bring a nice warm feeling around the group, as you are the kindest one in the group who always cares about anyone and sticks by anyone always, you are truly loyal to your friends which makes you so great you would go well with Mr. Tickle

Monday, June 08, 2009

case in point that technology cheapens the value of.. i dno, relationships?


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i've never actually ventured to this page on fb before, this is like, my first time seeing it. and wow, i'm worth JUST $500.. thanks.. that's like, less than a laptop. and less than a lot of material things.





been thinking about osl and cambodia a lot. sigh, there was a newspaper article about how Singapore didnt seem to be suffering from economic recession; COE prices were up, sales were great and all. so i guess we cant really see the effects of the economic down turn. but heard from ms chia and mr lim about the situation in Cambodia. apparently property prices are just 20% of what it used to be, crime rates are soaring and basically it's not safe there. and i look at my Cambodia pictures, of the pictures of laughing children and smiling kids, merrily playing along and studying. and i wonder now, what is to become of them? will they still be safe, allowed to study? or would they be sold as child workers in unsafe factories, or even as child sex workers? will they have enough to eat?
and the whole time, i'm just sitting here, in front of my laptop, doing nothing, just idly wondering about them.



life is really unfair. all i'm worrying about is my CTs, srp, climbing and other trivial stuff. and praying that my mom will be safe in London. while out there in the world, others have much more fundamental stuff to worry about; their next meal, their accomodations and employment and stuff.

and like, that recent fire in i cant rmb where, which took the lives of about 30 toddlers. super sad, seriously. innocent little kids, who bring so much joy and laughter to the world, just gone, like that.

and the thing is, being self-aborbed teenagers, we either dont really know about these stuff, or we read and we forget, and well, life just goes on for us and our main (trivial) worries take up the most of our mind again.



but i guess that's just the way life is. wish i could do something about it, but i have no idea what, and then again, even i have my own things to think about.

i guess that's what differentiates inspiring people like Mr Louis Ng (founder of ACRES) who take out time to pursue their cause at the expense of other things, and normal people like us. whose grades and studies over ride almost everything else. otherwise it's the pursuit of leadership postitions. which ultimately in the long run, dont really matter.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

jgis youth symposium ytd was pretty cool, but i thought it was a bit like a mass gathering of rgs girls or sth.

was feeling drowsy during her talk :/ but she's a really amazing an inspiring person. full of tenacity and drive yet calm person. i mean, her childhood dream was to go to africa to look after chimps (or sth to that extent) how cool is that?!?

and in her very long talk, stuff that struck out at me..
we need money to live but we shouldnt live for money. there's more value in life than money.
what story do you want your kids to tell of you? (what difference do you want to make?)

and from the closing uh address? by a graduate SAS kid,
life is measured by the no of lives you change, touch. make a difference, one cant do everything, but that doesnt mean you dont do the something that you can do.



in all, it was a pretty awesome saturday.





did pw in the afternoon. i'm really glad i've got such an awesome group(: feel really really blessed.



looking to a whole week at sji. hope it goes productively enough. cos i've a feeling my CTs might just suffer cos of it :/

Friday, June 05, 2009

extremely exhausted. i think this june hols is turning out to be the same, if not worse, than normal school term.


climbing was a bit... didnt really do much. overhang was :/ damned. amusingly, soff came. haha sheesh i've forgotten how much crap she talks. entertainment (:




i was just stoning at tmsi earlier in the day, when i suddenly remembered osl. :/ i really miss rg. life was so much simpler and free-er and i dno, better, in some ways. why do people always have to make life so complicated?




and i'd thank you, not to tell tales about me to others. i hate gossip.


i realise i miss s3 more than s4. s3 was one hell of a year, but well.


we cant turn back time.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

extremely tired. didnt go sji today xD as much as i like marine life, it's not exactly the most fun thing to do.. dont really get to explore low tide anw.

had to go sch for econs make up anw. but climbing after that (: juan and sihui finally came down. but training was damn tiring. at the end of it, i have 4 blisters on my fingers. annoying.


family went to studio to take photos with bro in grad gown. hmm haha i think the last time we went down to take was like, 7 years ago or sth..



there are so many things i wish i could do during the hols.. but ah wells, no point complaining.

just try to enjoy the things i have. and not whine about the things i dont.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

back track to sunday.


spent nearly my entire day at yishun safra, cos the organisers were just really inefficient :/ qualifiers 4th, finals still 4th, so well. really need to work on endurance and speed. and for the first time ever (in like 4 years), dad mom and jon went down to watch. but only cos they wanted to train for mt kinabalu...

finished The Last Lecture (like finally!) really good, but sad book, reading it during isolation, and i felt like crying. i think the world needs more inspiring people, inspiring teachers. and not teachers who just get students through their exams with As, but not do anything else apart from that. rigid people who are only looking for results. that's not the way to go.

and this is from harry potter, but really, it's the choices we make, that make us who we are. the right choice, or the popular choice. to use time efficiently and wisely, or just waste it.

and again, the paradox of life struck me.

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but
have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller
families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less
sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems,
more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too
little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too
much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a
living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've
been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street
to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've
done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but
polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write
more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to
rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to
produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods, and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of
two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are
days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night
stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to
quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and
nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to
you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just
hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going
to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to
you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your
side. Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is
the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but
most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from
deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for
someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to
speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.




and i do try to use my time efficiently and wisely (hence, appearing to study all the time, which i assure you, i do not.) but still, when it boils down to the whole essence of life, i think we should just enjoy it. i know my previous posts were pretty whiny and all, but really, i think i dont really mean it. at least, i'm not feeling all that stressed about it now.


we should use time wisely and not waste it. but we should invest the time needed in maintaining relationships i guess.


and i think one thing that really majorly sucks, is that i'm not going to be able to see many of my friends often in the hols :/

and i really dont get time to just slack. cos of srp, every other little bit of time, have to squeeze in studying. so no, i'm not mugger. i have not much of a choice, really.



in any case, do enjoy your holidays (:


and at sji (st john's island) ytd and today, saw some pretty cool stuff, up close under the microcope. extremely tiring on the eyes though it is. shall upload tmr.