In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
Do read my blogs, follow me on Twitter (@jocelynesze) and friend me on Facebook (subject to my discretion). Visit my Nature blog, Nature Rambles, at http://natureramble.wordpress.com.

UPDATE 2 Apr 2017 - This site is no longer maintained, please visit jocelynesze.wordpress.com if you're interested in more recent writing.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

if every time i sneeze, it means that someone's thinking of me, i'd rather people not think of me. sneezing 5 times in a row, many times over is not very nice.

hate it when i catch a cold/flu. and its worse trying to study with it. ah wells, it's but a minor problem.


i am thinking of post CTs plans already. and thinking of what i'll do after cts makes me happy (:

and i figured there's no point stressing over cts at this point in time. nothing much you can do about it. either you have it in your head, or you dont. and after all, we're all working towards prelims and A levels.



cos it's the hopes and dreams and happy things that keep me going. naive and childish i may be.

Friday, June 25, 2010

the last day of our last june holidays. ah wells. hopefully after As, everyday will be like a june holiday.


jon went to the zoo with his friend. damned, i wanted to go to the zoo. but wells. ct2 is more pressing.



i realise that our lives mean the world to us. naturally right, since our lives are all we have. we worry about every little thing, think too much and get stressed over so many things.
but yet, we are so insignificant. we're just one out of the 6 billion other human beings on this planet we call home. we could be significant to other people, could mean a lot to others, yes. but looking at the big picture, we really dont mean much.
if i died, the Earth wouldn't stop spinning, and life would still go on as usual. not that i'm suicidal in any way, but just saying.
it just makes me wonder on the point of life, the meaning of life i guess.



and i wonder, what you really think of me. you referring to people who read this blog in general.





Save You - Simple Plan
Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

I wish I could save you
I want you to know

I wish I could save you

Sunday, June 20, 2010

today's father's day.

but somehow i always feel that father's day is less celebrated than mother's day, for some reason or other. ah wells. as long as your dad knows he's appreciated and loved, i'm sure it doesnt matter(:


i personally think i've got the most awesome dad i could ever have (:





one week to ct2. i still feel very unprepared. ah wells.


studying makes me eat when i'm not hungry (just to stay awake) and not exercise (cos you think you should spend the time studying) and is therefore bad for health. could possibly have long term negative consequences on our health. where's the positive externality in that?




Affirmation - Savage Garden
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

[repeat ]




reading about hyperinflation in Zimbabwe and poverty and starvation and corruption there just makes me wish i could do something about it. why must life be so unfair? it's super super saddening.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

krabi was fun. at least it was a good reprieve from studying. though didnt do anything new, much.
and i got 3 cuts and 20 over mosquito bites from it.


i dont think my brain is big enough to hold all the information necessary for ct2, let alone a levels. i really really dont think i can remember everything. how the hell do people manage to get dean's list for every single subject?!??!


:/ :/ i dont want to study anymore. i want blueberry pancakes.


:( i want to climb/kayak/chase moths/WATCH GRASS GROW/slack around and not force myself to sit in front of stacks and stacks of files and worksheets and lecture notes and tutorials and patiently read through the load of useless information :(

Friday, June 11, 2010

second week of "hols" just flashed by.

in summary:
sun lunch with osl mentors and mr lim and ms chia(: was good catching up with them again, havent seen them in a long time, really miss hanging out with them, all the retarded jokes and stuff.
mon wed fri taken up by the international science camp hosted in rj, doing guided walks around sch and macritchie and station games. was a pretty fun experience, though took up much study time :/ :/ but studying with the unofficial nature soc is pretty fun i guess. tho not much work gets done :/
tue climbing at dairy farm was the most awesome thing ever. the picnic and climbing and company was just really fun (: pity it was raining, but it made it more interesting i guess :P and then on the train home, fell asleep standing and crashed sideways into someone T.T so embarrassing.
thu was just make up lessons, super tiring. went to boulder a bit at tp after that so i guess that made up for all the mental bashing.



starting to get quite stressed out over all the topics i havent touched. :/ really scared i wont be able to do well for ct2 D: esp since everyone's studying so hard now.
but i suppose if you dont try, you'll never know.



family trip to krabi. and then it'll be back to mugging :/ :/

Saturday, June 05, 2010

today's World Environment Day!

dont suppose many people knew/cared much, though mediacorp kept advertising it on their radio channels and tv channels.

but yeah, we should save Gaia cos it's tantamount to saving ourselves. without the Earth, we would have nothing. we wouldnt even exist. and really, the environment does a lot of work for us without charging us for it, and we shouldnt deprive ourselves of such services.


anyways, so to celebrate world environment day, i (as well as meijia, gladys, sean and shaun) went down to tanah merah shore (my parents insisted it doesnt exist.) to clean up the place cos it's been sadly neglected by nea. cos public safety is of utmost importance, and the public doesnt visit tanah merah shore, so wells. we decided to help out with a bunch of really awesome people (:

first time coming up close to an oil spill, and it's the saddest sight ever, really. the oil covered everything, it's damn gross and it stinks and it's just super sad that the marine life there has to live with it.

the sand was soaked in oil, the trash was covered in oil, the seagrass was coated with a layer of oil, there were oil globs floating and oozing oil streaks, there was a sheen of oil on the rocks, basically the oil was everywhere.


anw we managed to clear up plastic bottles, instant noodle packets, chip packets, bath gel bottles, 'ta pao kopi' plastic bags, random styrofoam bits soaked in oil and loads of STRAWS.
super annoying.


but there were sand bubblers and soldier crabs about, as well as lots of dubious nerites (that were clinging onto to oil-soaked plastic packets) and creepers. there were dead peanut worms as well though :/


k sorry too lazy to bother rotating. will upload more photos some other time.

Thursday, June 03, 2010

Gotta Be Somebody - Nickelback
This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I'll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I'll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.


Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.





my mom is like, really concerned that no one will want to marry me in the future.





and my dad is really amusing. cos i was going out to check out the nparks biodivercity photo exhibition. so i messaged my dad
me: i'm going out for lunch, back about 4 plus.
dad: where you going. for what..
me: going orchard, to look at a photo exhibition.
dad: good to learn shooting nice picture...
me: yeah, then next time can go work for nat geo and earn money by taking photos right.. haha so should i go learn photog in uni?
dad: do an investment analysis...
me: D: i never learn that in econs.. i only learnt how to do cost benefit analysis..
dad: that is junior study. must learn deeper more useful...
me: already a lot to study for a levels!
dad: next time




kay back to studying. some 20 odd topics for bio (T.T), 14 topics for chem, 13 and a bit topics for math and 11 topics for econs. bleh. a levels will suck even more.