In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
Do read my blogs, follow me on Twitter (@jocelynesze) and friend me on Facebook (subject to my discretion). Visit my Nature blog, Nature Rambles, at http://natureramble.wordpress.com.

UPDATE 2 Apr 2017 - This site is no longer maintained, please visit jocelynesze.wordpress.com if you're interested in more recent writing.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

why is it that people think that only kids can enjoy nature, that people only bring kids (like toddlers) to the zoo/park/seaside? why isnt it something that sticks with people till they're old and wrinkly? it's like as a kid you go outdoors a lot. but come teen/young adult, if you go outdoors a lot still, it's now called a passion or a hobby or like, just something that is exclusive and maybe unique.

and now, fewer and fewer kids are going out to play. (and i dont mean that it's cos of our lowered fertility rate). television and computer games and game consoles are just depriving kids of what childhood should be like. people are losing their connection with nature. from something that should be very fundamental and central to our lives, it's become something that only a few people do/enjoy. i just dont get it. how did we end up like that? i think actually humans dont really progress. we actually regress, only it appears superficially like we're progressing.




anw, on a more personal note, thinking back, i think my blog kinda evolved. i used to take a lot of photos (not the very awesome kind but at least photos) and post them, but now i cant be bothered. and being without a camera, i cant even take photos. though i really wanna pick up photography, esp like wildlife/nature/outdoor photography. but well looking at the way i handle my belongings, maybe that's a bad idea. and anyway i lack the capital.

and reading my past entries, of Jan 2007/2008/2009/2010 (basically all my past Jan entries), i realise i really changed a lot. mellowed down. maybe the old me is still hidden somewhere inside, just a shadow. maybe with the right people and context and situation and everything it will resurface.

not that i am any less full of zest for life and whatever; i think it just doesnt show as much on my blog. i dont see the need to tell the world what's going on in every single second of my life. reading my past entries was just pure nostalgia, cos i had honestly forgotten how crazy my life was back then. and i guess with such entries posted much less now, a few years down (or maybe just one), when i look back i wont be able to really remember what my life was like.

but also, though i changed in demeanor maybe, i am still more or less the same. the content remains. i think i'm just less high/emo/exhausted now. the mood swings are much less. i'm now just generally happy and contented and floating along, not high or exhausted. and obviously, have much less commitments. though i'm still not the kind to do nothing and have nothing to do.





sometimes trying too hard backfires.






Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind, images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me in the shade
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images, no

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me


Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot try the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

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