and now, fewer and fewer kids are going out to play. (and i dont mean that it's cos of our lowered fertility rate). television and computer games and game consoles are just depriving kids of what childhood should be like. people are losing their connection with nature. from something that should be very fundamental and central to our lives, it's become something that only a few people do/enjoy. i just dont get it. how did we end up like that? i think actually humans dont really progress. we actually regress, only it appears superficially like we're progressing.
anw, on a more personal note, thinking back, i think my blog kinda evolved. i used to take a lot of photos (not the very awesome kind but at least photos) and post them, but now i cant be bothered. and being without a camera, i cant even take photos. though i really wanna pick up photography, esp like wildlife/nature/outdoor photography. but well looking at the way i handle my belongings, maybe that's a bad idea. and anyway i lack the capital.
and reading my past entries, of Jan 2007/2008/2009/2010 (basically all my past Jan entries), i realise i really changed a lot. mellowed down. maybe the old me is still hidden somewhere inside, just a shadow. maybe with the right people and context and situation and everything it will resurface.
not that i am any less full of zest for life and whatever; i think it just doesnt show as much on my blog. i dont see the need to tell the world what's going on in every single second of my life. reading my past entries was just pure nostalgia, cos i had honestly forgotten how crazy my life was back then. and i guess with such entries posted much less now, a few years down (or maybe just one), when i look back i wont be able to really remember what my life was like.
but also, though i changed in demeanor maybe, i am still more or less the same. the content remains. i think i'm just less high/emo/exhausted now. the mood swings are much less. i'm now just generally happy and contented and floating along, not high or exhausted. and obviously, have much less commitments. though i'm still not the kind to do nothing and have nothing to do.
sometimes trying too hard backfires.