i really liked today's gospel. a reminder to me, because i've been losing sight of it. i think it's the whole point of being Christian, the whole meaning of being a Catholic.
Gospel, Mt 5:38-48
'You have heard how it was said: Eye for eye and tooth for tooth. But I say this to you: offer no resistance to the wicked. On the contrary, if anyone hits you on the right cheek, offer him the other as well; if someone wishes to go to law with you to get your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. And if anyone requires you to go one mile, go two miles with him. Give to anyone who asks you, and if anyone wants to borrow, do not turn away. 'You have heard how it was said, You will love your neighbour and hate your enemy. But I say this to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you; so that you may be children of your Father in heaven, for he causes his sun to rise on the bad as well as the good, and sends down rain to fall on the upright and the wicked alike. For if you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Do not even the tax collectors do as much? And if you save your greetings for your brothers, are you doing anything exceptional? Do not even the gentiles do as much? You must therefore be perfect, just as your heavenly Father is perfect.'
and that's what i'm trying (have been trying) to do. to love and forgive everyone equally, to be nice to everyone, even people who are very likeable. and it's not that we're supposed to just stand there like an idiot. if someone is in the wrong, shouldnt get angry at them (as hard as it is) but should just inform them of their offense. for if we get angry at them, then we are sinning too. and if they continue sinning then all we can do is pray for their conversion.
it's incredibly hard to do. it's so easy to just be like everyone else. to gossip and bitch and talk about other people, sometimes in not very nice ways. it's so easy to follow and get influenced. and become like that. not bad, not an evil person. but not as good as i could be if i try. yeah i know, i'm a guai kia like that.
but i think as long as i try my best to be a good Christian, as long as i really try, it'll be good enough.
i think i need to sort out my life properly, figure what i really want and what i will do with my life this year.
and hope for good news.
never ever give up hope.