In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
Do read my blogs, follow me on Twitter (@jocelynesze) and friend me on Facebook (subject to my discretion). Visit my Nature blog, Nature Rambles, at http://natureramble.wordpress.com.

UPDATE 2 Apr 2017 - This site is no longer maintained, please visit jocelynesze.wordpress.com if you're interested in more recent writing.

Saturday, February 19, 2011


i think i gotta start doing more with my life, then just working and coming home. working is fun and all, but i find no meaning to life, no goal.

while studying, i used to have many goals. short term ones, to be fulfilled in the year. long term goals, i naturally still have them. in terms of career and life.

but short term, like targets for each term and stuff, i am lacking them now. i dont have any targets for this year. no goals, nothing. and that makes me feel like life is a bit meaningless, pointless.

i need projects and meaningful things to occupy my time and make me feel like my life is worth living.

i was quite... not say miserable, but well i dont know. i was bored and restless and felt like something was not right with my life. and so i went for a long jog (for me) to figure all the above out. only now that i know what i need, i dont quite know what to do.

i actually want to learn many things this year. skills and languages and stuff. but inertia is always getting the better of me, as is dementia. i keep forgetting what i want to do when i have nothing to do.



anyway, went to semakau today with team seagrass, and the best thing i saw was a rainbow :D

i've decided to keep a separate blog for my nature-y stuff, so if you want to know more can go check it out.
http://natureramble.wordpress.com/


Tonight - FM Static
I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you told me about your Jesus
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

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