spent an hour or so lying on the grass near the Shaw Foundation amphi (or whatever that structure is called) talking to ruici about the future. and i guess the future is what most of us are thinking about now. be it the uni we want to go to, the company we are considering spending years with and our dreams. if it all reconciles.
my brother (older) used to have a dream. of an ideal job, of what he aspired to be, dreams. but then, he went into ns, and got jaded. and now he decides he shall just focus on earning money. dreams got lost.
i just hope that i never lose my dream. i may never achieve it, never manage to fulfill my aspiration, but i hope i never forget it. and honestly if you ask me what i really want to do in the future, i have no answer for you. i dont know exactly what i can do, like the options for me. but i do know that i dont want my life planned out for me. i know what i dont want to do.
but i also know that if i do get bonded, i know how the rest of my life will pan out. which is not a bad thing, i guess, but just not my dream. i dont know. i just want to go with the flow and see how my life turns out. how many individual, independent choices come together to result in my life.
and i'll be going tioman this weekend for my advanced diving course. hope there'll be awesome stuff to see. gonna be a boat trip, so exciting (:
thought of this idea one night. to contact all my kindergarten and pri sch teachers. go back to my kindergarten and pri sch to find my teachers and talk to them. i think teachers appreciate this kind of thing. but i always have ideas that i rarely act on. maybe this will be different.
and the most awesome thing ever. free cone day this coming tuesday, and includes the outlet at the zoo! yay :D i've already eaten so much unhealthy things at the zoo since i started work. but i went for a jog today at the botanic gardens. i must say the botanic gardens smell a lot better than the zoo, though i suppose that is not surprising.
pardon me if my english make no sense, i'm quite sleepy. fell asleep standing on the mrt today. and leaned onto the person on my right, whoops.
I Hope You Dance - Lee Ann Womack