In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
Do read my blogs, follow me on Twitter (@jocelynesze) and friend me on Facebook (subject to my discretion). Visit my Nature blog, Nature Rambles, at http://natureramble.wordpress.com.

UPDATE 2 Apr 2017 - This site is no longer maintained, please visit jocelynesze.wordpress.com if you're interested in more recent writing.

Monday, August 29, 2011

sending people off at the airport is always sad.


it makes me wonder about if and when i go overseas, what will it be like. probably, everyone's too busy with school to bother.


really needs sleep, my mood's getting worse. sleep is always the best form of escapism for me.




and my mac is annoying me. screen has a connection problem, if not held at a certain, precise angle, the screen whites out and doesnt respond. need to get it fixed, soon.







convince me that i'm not wasting my life. and tell me what i want out of it.







The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am?"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

[Chorus:]
'cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved

[Chorus 2x]

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move



i dont know whether to think the guy is really sweet and has a lot of perseverance, or that he's an idiot wasting his time when he could be doing more productive things. (watch the official music video)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Oh no, it's so sad, I only posted twice this month, and it's almost the end of the month already! Doubt I will ever let this blog die though, it holds too much of me.

Just that I've been pre-occupied with a number of things that I don't seem to be able to find the time to visit this place. With Coastal Cleanup, Island Peak preparations, university applications, and I dunno what else. Though come to look at my calendar, I actually seem to have quite a number of free days. Ah wells.

Had another crazy Sunday, church canteen duty so had to be there by 645am, and doing manual labour all the way till 130pm, then rushing down to Bukit Timah for training with a 19kg backpack. But I'm glad though, today for canteen, instead of using disposables (styrofoam >:( ) as we usually do, I decided that enough was enough, I will wash the plates/bowls if we have to, but we're not using disposables. (: Had another "green debate" with the others about whether it's more harmful wasting water to wash dishes or using styrofoam disposables.

And it's pretty sad that not many people know about the Pacific Garbage Patch. Maybe I only knew cos of my interest in it, but wells. Basically, almost all our trash, unless incinerated and buried properly like in Semakau in Singapore, ends up in gyres in the oceans. There, there are metres and metres of trash. Literally, you'll be swimming through a pool of trash. Only it's a pretty big area and the trash goes down pretty deep. It's just disgusting, and sad that humans have managed to wreak so much destruction and change the surface of the earth so much.




Back to random, unimportant things in life, I'm hooked on the Channel 8 9pm drama serial. Bad thing, to be hooked on TV. Lucky the series ending soon.





I need more intellectual, stimulating and enriching things. Like how animals in captivity have enrichment activities to keep their minds active, I think I need that too. Desperately, before my brain cells degenerate and I become stupid in university. Rather, I need to remember all the things I have to do. Uni apps for one, studying for FTT and a number of other things. Argh.






i guess i wasn't too wrong either. doesnt make it any less painful though.





You Can't Stop the Beat - Hairspray
You can't stop an avalanche as it races down the hill
You can try to stop the seasons, girl, but you know you never will
And you can try to stop my dancin' feet, but I just cannot stand still!

'Cause the world keeps spinnin' round and round
And my heart's keepin' time to the speed of sound
I was lost 'til I heard the drums, and I found my way
'Cause you can't stop the beat

Ever since this whole world began
A woman found out if she shook it, she could shake up a man
And so I'm gonna shake and shimmy it the best that I can today
'Cause you can't stop the motion of the ocean or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna, but I'll never ask why
And if you try to hold me down, I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That You Can't Stop the Beat!

You can't stop the river as it rushes to the sea
You can try to stop the hands of time, but you know it just can't be!
And if they try to stop us, Seaweed, I'll call the N double A C P

Cause the world keeps spinnin round and round
And my heart's keepin time to the speed of sound
I was lost 'til I heard the drums, then I found my way
Cause you can't stop the beat!

Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman like to shake it on a Saturday night
So I'm gonna shake and shimmy it with all of my might today
Cause you can't stop the motion of the ocean, or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise were dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!

You can't stop my happiness, cause I like the way I am
And you just can't stop my knife and fork when I see a Christmas Ham!
And if you don't like the way I look, well, I just don't give a damn!
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hairspray/you_cant_stop_the_beat.html ]
Cause the world keeps spinnin' round and round
And my hearts keepin time to the speed of sound
I was lost 'til I heard the drums, then I found my way

Cause you can't stop the beat...

Ever since this whole world began
A woman found out if she shook it she could shake up a man
So I'm gonna shake and shimmy it the best that I can today!
Cause you can't stop the motion of the ocean or the sun in the sky
You can wonder if you wanna but I'll never ask why
And if you try to hold me down, I'm gonna spit in your eye and say
That you can't stop the beat!

Oh, Oh, Oh
You can't stop today [No! ]
As it comes speeding 'round the track [oooh, child yes! ]
Yesterday is hist'ry [be gone! ]
And it's never comin' back! [Look ahead, cause...]
Tomorrow is a brand new day, and it don't know white from black [Yeah! ]

'Cause the world keeps spinnin' round and round
And my heart's keepin time to the speed of sound
I was lost 'til I heard the drums, then I found my way
'Cause you can't stop the beat!

Ever since we first saw the light,
A man and woman like to shake it on a Saturday night
So I'm gonna shake and shimmy it with all of my might today!
Cause you can't stop the motion of the ocean, or the rain from above
And you can try to stop the paradise we're dreamin' of
But you cannot stop the rhythm of two hearts in love to stay
'Cause you can't stop the beat!

Aah, aah, aah,
Ahh, ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh, ahh ahh

Ever since we first saw the light
A man and woman like to shake it on a saturday night
But now we're gonna shake and shimmy it and have some fun today!
Cause you can't stop the Motion of the ocean or the rain from above
You can try to stop the paradise were dreamin of
But you cannot stop the rhythm of two hearts in love to stay!
Cause you can't stop the beat!
You can't stop the beat
You can't stop the beat
You can't stop the beat!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

ahhh i meant to post on National Day itself! but what with one thing and another, here's a super belated National Day post. and i really really want to sleep, but i think i should just get this out.


watching the NDay parade (which looks the same every year, i dont understand why we must always show off our military prowess, arent we all for world peace???) i wondered if whatever was portrayed on the screen was really what Singapore meant to Singaporeans.

because I think, it wasn't really mine. The part that struck the most was perhaps, the rural and rustic lifestyle of the past, because almost all that heritage is gone now, when i really want to experience it. they should just have kept kampong lorong buangkok for educational value, really. it makes it easier for the current generation of spoilt brats to understand how far we have progress, rather than just looking at pictures and fake re-enactments in Malaysia.

i think the thing that strikes me most about being a singaporean, is the ease of talking to another singaporean that you cant really get with other nationalities. i mean, you can still talk to them easily and well, but never the same as a fellow singaporean. like how i can hop into the cab and talk to the uncle in singlish and broken chinese about school and work and singapore and singaporeans and stuff. you cant do the same with non-singaporeans.



but anyways. been pre-occupied with getting equipment for the nepal trip that's coming up in 66 days or something!!!! stresss. and applying to unis. everyone's asking where i'm going, what i'm doing. ahhhh.



and today, i woke up at 345am to go down to marina south pier. slept at 130am?2am? trying to book a taxi. it's a horror, really. i called almost every single company there are in singapore. and either the system is down or they dont have cabs at that time or something. and they dont accept nets. and in the end, the cab i booked from premier cab didnt appear. thank God someone was alighting right outside my house so i got a cab (:

but anw, Tropical Marine Science Institute was conducting a guided walk at St John's Island for NUS High students, and i got roped in to help. pre-dawn walk, pretty interesting, so some stuff. though not as much as i would like (octopus!! :( )

then went down to Botanic Gardens with two of the TMSI staff for the mega marine survey volunteer dialogue. really interesting stuff they revealed, and after that was makan cum socialising session.

more on the guided walk and volunteer dialogue on my other blog. sometime soon :/


and in the aftn i went to swim! cos i had nothing to do (: but i'm so amazingly lousy now, i get tired after half a lap.



ahh really need to think about unis :/ :/ :/ need to set aside a lot of time for this. somehow the time i set aside for uni apps keeps getting eaten up by other stuff.



Give Me Your Eyes - Brandon Heath
Looked down from a broken sky
Traced out by the city lights
My world from a mile high
Best seat in the house tonight
Touched down on the cold black tar
Hold on for the sudden stop
Breathe in the familiar shock
Of confusion
And chaos

All those people goin' somewhere
Why have I never cared?

Give me Your eyes for just one second
Give me Your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me Your love for humanity
Give me Your arms for the broken-hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten
Give me Your eyes so I can see
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah

Step out on a busy street
See a girl and our eyes meet
Does her best to smile at me
To hide what's underneath
There's a man just to her right
Black suit and a bright red tie
Too ashamed to tell his wife
He's out of work, he's buyin' time






Monday, August 08, 2011

Wow, it's been such a long time since I last posted.


And my parents have been gone for an even longer time. I miss my daddy :( Can't wait for them to be back.


So I've just been meeting people the past few days, different groups of people. I guess my interaction with different groups of people is different. And people see different sides of me. And get different perceptions of me. But nevermind, all this is just inconsequential mumblings. Does not have much implication.


Feeling quite tired from shuttling back and forth between home and grandma house. Cos naturally I gotta lug my precious laptop where ever I go. Heh, I'm an internet addict.



Coastal cleanup on Sat (6 Aug) at Lim Chu Kang mangroves was awesome. It's really therapeutic, I feel so happy just picking up trash. Yeah I'm weird like that (: And it's pretty late, so my brain is, as usual, not functioning so well. So my post is a little incoherent.



and Happy National Day (: I love our country, I really do. I just feel that sometimes, our progress is not real progress. And I do wish our country would be more environmentally friendly. Just ban plastic bags damnit!!




Can You Feel the Love Tonight - Elton John
There's a calm surrender to the rush of day
When the heat of a rolling world can be turned away
An enchanted moment, and it sees me through
It's enough for this restless warrior just to be with you

And can you feel the love tonight
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far
And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best

There's a time for everyone if they only learn
That the twisting kaleidoscope moves us all in turn
There's a rhyme and reason to the wild outdoors
When the heart of this star-crossed voyager beats in time with yours

And can you feel the love tonight
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far
And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best