random thought, but while walking home today, i thought about my future and i realised, i probably won't have kids. as much as i really love them and want to have some of my own.

maybe cos i'm selfish, or maybe i'm just thinking of them. i want to do lots of things, esp travel, and to have my kids having to tag along with me where ever i go would not be fair to them, neither would leaving them behind in singapore while i go around. and i suppose i would want to dedicate myself whole heartedly to my job, and not have to think about other things.

but then again, this world is getting in worse and worse shape. would i really want my kids to live in a world where you can only find animals in zoos, and plants in nature parks? where ppl know how to interact with a machine more than a fellow human being? or i dunno, i cant really fathom what life will be like a couple of decades down the road. would things get better, or worse? will more people start caring for the environment, from individuals all the way to corporations and governments? and everyone lives life sustainably and economics is not the driving force of the world? or will everything just slowly go to depletion as we create more and more man-made things and ignore the natural world?



i'm starting to rant, so maybe i shall stop. in any case, i'm no where near marriage even, so let's not get ahead of ourselves and think of kids.




this week has been a long week. extremely long. and next week, i'll be starting a new job in a new place with new people.





so many things to do. honestly, my biggest fear is probably disappointment. of disappointing myself, and disappointing others. i feel like too many people have got too many expectations of me, and i'm not delivering. i dont want to let anyone down.




really tired. it's been a mad week with too many late nights and too many things happening.