I finally got the chance to climb! I really don't know what I've been occupied with the past month or so (my calendar tells me dinner meetings, working at Night Safari & French lessons), but I've not had time to have many dinners with my family, or equally tragically, to climb!!
So finally, finally went back to Climb Asia, and went to boulder. Because I had no one to belay me :( But bouldering's not a bad start, my stamina is so atrocious, I need to do more laps. Was not expecting much of a crowd cos I thought everyone was having exams, but I forgot about the SMU & poly students.
And so I was sitting there, feeling a lot of inertia, and also feeling very noob cos I was just looking at the others climb and recalling the times when I probably was able to climb at that standard too, or thereabouts.
But anyway, previously, when people asked, why do you love/like climbing? I could never really give a proper answer. But once you've stopped for a while and you go back to it, sitting there and just thinking (as per my usual self, I suppose), I kinda realised why.
It's being able to challenge yourself, not just physically, but also mentally. Many times, you may think it's an impossible problem, you just can't do it, it's beyond you. But maybe it's just a matter of will, of how much you're willing to push yourself. Yes, there are certain physical limitations (if I'm only 1.57m tall and my next tile is 3m away, and there's nothing else, no side wall, no feature, nothing except a blank wall, yeah probably impossible), but usually it's a mental problem.
And the sense of achievement you get when you thought you couldn't do it, that it was beyond you, that you will fall - but you didn't! It's that feeling that keeps me coming back, I guess.
Also, it's amazing how climbing problems are never rigid. There are many ways to solve the problem. Just cos you're the tallest and strongest doesn't mean you'll confirm win. And just cos you're small may not necessarily mean you're at a disadvantage. It's a lot of innovation and creative problem-solving. Not that I'm particularly creative or innovative.
Perhaps ultimately, it's the sense of control I get that is what I really like about climbing. Knowing you have to be in full control of your mind and body to get it to do what you want and achieve it with a sense of calm and determination. Fully focused on the wall and the problem and how to solve it to get to the end point.
Yes, I definitely missed climbing, and I'm glad I made the decision to stop working at Night Safari so I have time for more dinner gatherings and climbing. Because come June, there will be little time left for these important things in my life.