In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
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Sunday, June 24, 2012

a little bit of this and that.

Been in Gerik, Perak, Malaysia for about a week now, to volunteer with Rimba. So far it's been pretty good, much better than expected actually. Didn't quite come at the right time, not much work to do. Mostly looking through camera trap photos in the field house, where there's wifi xD hence the high Facebook activity.

But thankfully so, least I can keep updated about Rio+20 and wild boar issues (that need to be resolved quickly).

It's been pretty interested (and tedious), following Rio+20, and it's been kinda resigned, following the wild boar issue. Cos it's Singapore and I know that ultimately, no matter what, human safety and humans will aways come first. Actually, it's the same all over the world.

Anyways, life here must be pretty much like what life was like in Singapore in the 1960s. Or even later? Don't quite know.

Lots of old school stuff.
old school biscuits

old school juke box

old school pencil box

old school bubble gum

I'm a kinda nostalgic person I guess, and our heritage interests me. I wish our National Education/Social Studies had more content of how were our MRTs/roads named, old playgrounds, buildings and HDBs, the transition from kampong to HDBs (some pretty good posts about it here) and all that kinda stuff. And of course, we should learn more about the anti-communist things that the government used to do, such as Operation Cold Store, amongst others. But I'm sure, we won't be seeing that in our syllabus for quite a while at least.

Moving on, some happier things. I really need to post this. Watch this whale spout a rainbow!

Too cool and awesome for words :D

Yeah, we need to take things in life easier and with a pinch of salt. Watch more smile-inducing videos. No matter what happens, ultimately we just gotta make sure we can live with ourselves, and we live a happy life.

Leaving tonight for Kenyir, Terengganu, where the field house is not quite as nice as the one here in Gerik. No wifi in the house, though it's possible to get it from a hotel nearby apparently. But I think I'll leave my laptop behind, and not spam my Facebook friends with a torrent of links (that they probably ignore). So till I get back next week, then!

Saturday, June 16, 2012

feeling just a little lost.

too many things running through my mind. apologies for the fragments of thoughts.

back from holiday in Phuket with my family, probably the last stretch of spending so much time with them, in light of the travels coming up next. had fun, slacked a lot, got a new pair of specs, got a little darker, and watched Batman, Batman Returns, Batman Forever, Batman and Robin, Hulk and Spiderman. HBO every night. and I learnt from my brother that HBO stands for Home Box Office.

there is great inertia. spent the whole time in Phuket doing nothing much, and when I'm back, I know there are lots of things to do, but I just feel so disconnected and removed from it all. will probably get around to doing it, cos that disconnected feeling gets lost eventually, but for now, I can see why people can't be bothered doing things.

I realised, it's not a crime to be an ass. I try to be nice, to put in my best effort when doing things, to treat people how I'd like to be treated. but I realised that even if you don't, even if you're selfish and mean and can't be bothered trying to make life easier for others, as long as you're not evil and don't commit a crime, you can't be faulted. and it's a lot easier to just not bother, a lot more energy conserving.

so what's the motivation that makes people want to do a good job (even if there is no monetary incentive), and be a decent person and make things easier for others, and not harder?

and it's not so far off to stretch it and ask, what makes people have a passion for something? be it the environment, animals, humanity, sports, outdoor activities or whatever. it takes energy, a lot of it, and what you get out of it is rather intangible, is it not? it's so much easier to not bother, to live life drifting along, doing what everyone else does and not bothering any more than what you're paid for. to get rich doing something that would probably give little joy and a lot of pain, and then spend all that money on something that would probably give ephemeral excitement (I wouldn't even call it joy or happiness).

I sound skeptical cos that's not what I'd like to do, but it is a lot "easier" to do that isn't it, than to fight for a cause, or to work hard at something where there's little monetary returns.

in any case, I'm gonna be out of town for 4 weeks starting tomorrow night, volunteering with Rimba at Gerik, Perak, Malaysia. Looking forward to it!

Haven't climbed in ages :( I miss ODAC and school and PE lessons. Was briefly reminded of team games when we played a bit of water polo in Phuket, and of ODAC when we went cycling around the area.

Astronaut – Simple Plan
Can anybody hear me? 
Am I talking to myself? 
My mind is running empty 
In the search for someone else 
Who doesn't look right through me 
It's all just static in my head 
Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite?

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut 
Sending SOS from this tiny box 
And I lost all signal when I lifted up 
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot

Can I please come down (come down) 
Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round
(And round) Can I please come down?

I'm deaf from all the silence 
Is it something that I've done?
I know that there are millions 
I can't be the only
One who's so disconnected 
It's so different in my head. 
Can anybody tell me
Why I'm lonely like a satellite?

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut 
Sending SOS from this tiny box 
And I lost all signal when I lifted up 
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot

Can I please come down (come down) 
Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round
(And round) Can I please come down?

Now I lie awake and scream in a zero gravity 
And it's starting to weigh down on me. 
Let's abort this mission now 
Can I please come down?

So tonight I'm calling all astronauts 
Calling lonely people that the world forgot 
If you hear my voice come pick me up 
Are you out there? 

'Cause you're all I've got! 

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut 
Sending SOS from this tiny box 
And I lost all signal when I lifted up 
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot 

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut 
Sending SOS from this tiny box 
To the lonely people that the world forgot Are you out there? 
Cause you're all I've got! 
Can I please come down? (please please please) 
Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round. 
Can I please come down?

Saturday, June 09, 2012

not working makes me sick.

Since work ended last Fri, I've still been pretty busy. Plenty of things to do (clean up my room, settle paperwork for my trips and studying in UK etc.), and I don't think I'll ever have a lack of work to do.

Went to Batam, Indonesia, with Soff last Mon-Tue (4-5 June), and it was great. We just slacked and ate. I'm amazed at how much we spent on food, but not surprised xD
But we mostly reminisced and pondered our future *cue Graduation (Friends Forever) by Vitamin C*

I went for a friend's baby boy's 1st month party last Sat (2 June), and then another friend's hen night. And it just made me wonder even more, what would life be like 5 years, 10 years down the road? What would we all be doing? Would we still be friends? Would I be getting married? How many of my friends would be? Will we one day, go out for dinner, and have to bring our kids along? Will we all be too busy with work to care about the bigger things in life? Will we remember what we told ourselves all those years ago, about how life is more than just work for money? Or even, where will I be working, will I even be able to find a job (I enjoy)?

But anyways, next day I went for an early morning field trip to Beting Bronok (woke up at 230am), and subsequently fell sick. Fever, flu, sore throat. Don't know if it's from lack of sleep, lack of work, or sth else. But I haven't fallen majorly ill the entire year so far, so I suppose it was due.

Still managed to go for another early morning field trip to Kusu Island the next day (Ibuprofen is amazing), and despite wearing long sleeves, still managed to get 9 sandfly bites on my hands/wrists. Plus 3/4 on my face/neck area, and strangely enough, one on my belly button. Don't know how it got there. Sandflies are my worse nemesis.

So eitherways, been busy going out and settling stuff, but I still have a lot of backlog of posts to clear and I'm leaving for Phuket tomorrow :X at least I managed to clear up my room somewhat.

Oh and I managed to, yet again, lose my 6th camera. My Olympus Tough 3000. Ah wells. Got another Olympus Tough today from the PC show (the crowd was very very scary. it's also scary how consumerism has taken over the world.), and hopefully this camera no. 9 will last longer than it's predecessor. (camera no. 7 is a Fujifilm one that's now with my dad, and camera no. 8 is my Canon S100)

I also managed to crack my glasses and misplace my other pair. So I guess I'll just have to go around with taped-up glasses.

And tragically, I haven't climbed the past month or so and I won't be climbing for the next month or so. Sighs my priorities in life have gone hay-wire :(