In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
Do read my blogs, follow me on Twitter (@jocelynesze) and friend me on Facebook (subject to my discretion). Visit my Nature blog, Nature Rambles, at http://natureramble.wordpress.com.

UPDATE 2 Apr 2017 - This site is no longer maintained, please visit jocelynesze.wordpress.com if you're interested in more recent writing.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Inertia and reluctance.

It's finally almost time for me to leave again, to start my second year of undergraduate studies in the United Kingdom.

Had a long day today, up at 5.45am to go Kranji East mangroves for International Coastal Cleanup Singapore, and then all the way across the island to Chek Jawa at Pulau Ubin for TeamSeagrass monitoring in the evening. Really enjoyed every bit of it, missed all of this while overseas. Blogpost will be up soon-ish, cos I need to get started on packing.

But I'm just sitting here with a lot of inertia and reluctance. My room's a terrible mess, stacks of books and clothes that I wanna bring back strewn all over the floor, while playing emo songs.

Sighs. No lack of things to do. But this is one of those days when I just feel like curling up on my bed and sleeping, pretending that I don't have anything to do. That somehow by doing that I can delay the inevitable.

Cups (Pitch Perfect's When I'm Gone) - Anna Kendrick
I got my ticket for the long way round
Two bottles of whiskey for the way
And I sure would like some sweet company
And I'm leaving tomorrow
What do you say?

When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my hair
You're gonna miss me everywhere
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

I got my ticket for the long way round
The one with the prettiest of views
It's got mountains, it's got rivers
Its got sights to give you shivers
But it sure would be prettier with you
.
When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone

When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my hair
You're gonna miss me everywhere
Oh, you're sure gonna miss me when I'm gone

When I'm gone
When I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk
Oh, you're gonna miss me when I'm gone



Not that presumptuous to think that people are definitely gonna miss me when I'm gone, but I will definitely miss people when I'm gone, and it's a really nice song. 

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

I hate goodbyes.

After I crossed the 2 week mark (midpoint) of being back home, I've been getting bouts of emo-ness, knowing that I'll soon be heading back to the UK.

On one hand, I am looking forward to going back. I've got great courses (Animal Biology, Ecology and the palaeontology side of Geology), the climate conference and nature society stuffs, and friends to meet. On the other, I really don't want to leave. I've just spent many days in the past few weeks looking at wildlife and some not so wildlife too, talking about them and generally really enjoying myself. I've had great laughs with friends, the kind where you laugh till your stomach aches. I've had awesome food, surrounded by familiar accent (whether Chinese, Indian or Malay) and very consistent weather (consistently hot and humid).

I know I'm gonna miss the conversations I've had here, very very much, cos they're hard to replicate. I'm gonna miss our wildlife, our amazing biodiversity, the ease of going out and the frequent nature trips, cos these rarely exist elsewhere. I'm gonna miss laughing so hard my stomach hurts, cos it's hard to find people who can make me laugh that hard. I'm gonna miss the wonderful diversity of Asian food, the awesome Singlish, the lack of need for layers, cos I'm definitely not gonna get that.

Leaving the first time is hard – but leaving the second time seems to be harder. Cos I kinda know what I'm gonna be going back to, which is not always as rosy as people make it out to be.



A month just whizzed by like that, I've been counting every day, yet they still seem to slip past my fingers. I'm not leaving, not just yet. I've still got 5 days to go, and I gotta make every bit of the 5 days count.



Leaving on a Jet Plane - John Denver
All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go