In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
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Tuesday, September 17, 2013

I hate goodbyes.

After I crossed the 2 week mark (midpoint) of being back home, I've been getting bouts of emo-ness, knowing that I'll soon be heading back to the UK.

On one hand, I am looking forward to going back. I've got great courses (Animal Biology, Ecology and the palaeontology side of Geology), the climate conference and nature society stuffs, and friends to meet. On the other, I really don't want to leave. I've just spent many days in the past few weeks looking at wildlife and some not so wildlife too, talking about them and generally really enjoying myself. I've had great laughs with friends, the kind where you laugh till your stomach aches. I've had awesome food, surrounded by familiar accent (whether Chinese, Indian or Malay) and very consistent weather (consistently hot and humid).

I know I'm gonna miss the conversations I've had here, very very much, cos they're hard to replicate. I'm gonna miss our wildlife, our amazing biodiversity, the ease of going out and the frequent nature trips, cos these rarely exist elsewhere. I'm gonna miss laughing so hard my stomach hurts, cos it's hard to find people who can make me laugh that hard. I'm gonna miss the wonderful diversity of Asian food, the awesome Singlish, the lack of need for layers, cos I'm definitely not gonna get that.

Leaving the first time is hard – but leaving the second time seems to be harder. Cos I kinda know what I'm gonna be going back to, which is not always as rosy as people make it out to be.



A month just whizzed by like that, I've been counting every day, yet they still seem to slip past my fingers. I'm not leaving, not just yet. I've still got 5 days to go, and I gotta make every bit of the 5 days count.



Leaving on a Jet Plane - John Denver
All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go





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