In brief...

I'm a Nature-lover, aspiring conservationist, and wannabe traveller in search of outdoor adventure.
My interests vary from conservation to education to heritage to Nature (biodiversity & wildlife) to outdoor activities to life in general.
They occupy most of my waking moment.
Do read my blogs, follow me on Twitter (@jocelynesze) and friend me on Facebook (subject to my discretion). Visit my Nature blog, Nature Rambles, at http://natureramble.wordpress.com.

UPDATE 2 Apr 2017 - This site is no longer maintained, please visit jocelynesze.wordpress.com if you're interested in more recent writing.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

drawn-out.

A brief, grousing post.

I must have forgotten what Cambridge terms were like. There was supposed to be Week 5 Blues. But we're now halfway through week 7, and I'm chest-deep in work. How this even happened I don't even know, cos for the past week, I've actually been going to a library to study/do my work on my "off days" (I don't have lectures on Tues/Thu). Instead of lounging about my room on my laptop. And I now have 2 essays and 2 short answer practical questions due Mon and another essay due Tue. :/ I also still have my project report to write up.

It's not gonna end, till the weekend after term ends. I thought things were supposed to be slowing down, getting slacker as we approach the end of term, but no. It seems to be picking up pace.

And all the other things as well. Too many things firing at once. Sudden thought: back in RGS, I spent much of my time wondering if I had bitten off more than I could chew. But here, that thought never once crossed my mind. I guess having been through all that, I have at least learned to cope with all the stress and developed the skills needed to deal with having multiple commitments.

And on the periphery of my brain, stuff about slavery and human rights, about poverty and inequality and policies, about the climate conference in Warsaw, about land use and future plans back home.

My mind just explodes sometimes, I'm sure. In the form of bizarre, vivid dreams. Such as that of me being chased by some South American mafia and getting shot, jumping into a freezing cold water body to escape but still getting found anyway - then they realised I wasn't the one they were trying to go after. I swear, I recall looking down on my left arm in the dream and seeing a chunk taken out and the blood and all. Totally random.

Tired; bedtime.

Friday, November 08, 2013

Blues.

The word "blues" means quite a few things. Principally in Cambridge lingo (or maybe it's UK in general), it means you play sports for the university. But there's mid-term blues (right now), and everyone knows monday blues. It's also a music genre. Strange why blue seems to imply sadness when I feel really happy when I see blue skies. Or the blue seas. And the multiple shades of blue I'm in when I go for my lectures (jackets in various shades of blue, blue backpack, blue bottle...)

While wandering around Coe Fen before lunch today.


Anyway, I randomly felt like sharing this article on my blog: There’s a Word for That: 25 Expressions You Should Have in Your Vocabulary. It was based on this Tumblr, and these are some of the words I really liked out of that 25 out of the many many words shared on the Tumblr.

1 – Sophrosyne
sophrosyne
3 – Numinous
numinous
4 – Nemophilist
nemophilist
6 – Erlebnisse
erlebnisse
8 – Meliorism
meliorism
9 – Fernweh
fernweh
11 РSmultronställe
smultronstalle
16 – Hiraeth
hiraeth
21 – Orenda
orenda
22 – Sehnsucht
sehnsucht
23 – Tsundoko
tsundoku


I probably won't be able to remember these words. Doesn't make them any less beautiful though.

I had two lunches with very nice company and very good conversation this week, and that made my week awesome.

Now it's back to figuring out R and starting on the report writing proper. I always end up doing this on Thu night cos that's when all my other supervision work (ie essays) are done and handed in, and I've got a sliver of time to think about the ecology project.



A sudden desire to go somewhere tropical-ish, by the sea, on a cliff, with a stack of books. And spending my time reading, running around exploring the area (climb/hike/swim) and praying. 

Friday, November 01, 2013

mid-term blues.

We're now halfway through the term. This year, this term, is in some sense, quite different from last year, but at the same time, still the same.

I've been somewhat slacker, academically, since we just do 3 modules now instead of 4 in the first year. And I'm really enjoying ecology and animal biology, and the concepts come to me much more easily. Geology on the other hand, is still quite painful, highly reminiscent of earth sciences in Michaelmas last year. Too many angles and equations for my liking at the moment.

Nonetheless, I don't think I have any more free time than I had last year. Still plenty of things to occupy my time and my thoughts, lots of talks to go for and work to do. And with all that happening, it's easier to not think about things you don't want to think about, and keep homesickness at bay.

Still though, even though I don't talk about it much, bits of missing family and friends and home creep in, and today I finally gave in. Decided to watch The Noose (Season 6) instead of trying to troubleshoot R for my ecology project.

The Noose. One of the most awesome Channel 5 programmes ever.

No more Michelle Chong, but it's still pretty good.



Like I said previously, if you've got friends studying/living overseas, their lives (on Facebook or Twitter or whatever) always seem so good. They're out with friends, drinking, cooking, going places, enjoying life etc. But I guess you should ask what's not there.



Anyways, it's All Saints' Day, and I've always liked the Prayer of St Francis of Assisi:

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace;
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is error, the truth;
Where there is doubt, the faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master, Grant that I may not so much seek
To be consoled, as to console;
To be understood, as to understand;
To be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
And it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.



For there are always people out there who need prayer and love more than you do.